She Left

In the books of my mind i found
the meaning of love,
When it was true i lost it,
When it was precious away i tossed it,
When it was genuine i wrecked it,
Not by cheating or slipping
Not by rudeness of my drinking,
I never had to see beyond her sparkling eyes,
I never had to fake a kiss and tell her lies
I never had to exaggerate her magical beauty
In my little heart she was so special than something i actually knew,
She was the bold one in my soul,
My pillar that was so strong and would never get old,
But still she went, silently like an owl in a freezy night,
Her reason legit,
But my heart became so dark with no single fringe of light,
Tell me i was wrong for loving her right,
Tell me i deceived myself with what i felt,
It was so hard to fight,
With my foot forward i decided to walk alone,
My world was grey but i clutched my solid trust by me,
My vision dimmed but i got faith she never took,
My strength faded but behind my shoulder i dared not look,
So quietly siting in my silent corner i referred to my book,
And i was wrong to judge,
Saw that in the very first page,
Love wasn't loving her, it was showing her,
Passion wasn't touching her, it was feeling her,
Being there was the major deal
Time was hers to take and mine to give
I never loved right,
And that's the lesson she taught me,
That was how she left me,
So cruel indeed,
Deep down i bleed,
A haunting past she gave me,
As my gift for loving her,
So real and true.