Missing

November 20, 2009

I'm missing from you
And my heart is missing you
You forgot me purposely
Why didn't you want me in your life?
I never caused grief for you
Never can you guess how I feel
I want to jump off a cliff
Into the icy water of the ocean
Maybe the water could ease the pain
Or maybe it'll never go away
My life is missing something without you
I wonder if you feel the same
You don't care that I'm missing
Or how sad I have been
If you don't want me in your life anymore
I'm not going to bother trying
I'd rather not have you ignore me even more
Although you already do that now
Breaking my chains from my love for you
Would be nice but they pull me down more when I try
My love for you never goes away
And neither does the emptiness I have without you
I thought you'd be here forever
But then you left me missing in your thoughts
When you see me again and want to talk to me
Don't expect me to speak
I have nothing to say to you anymore
I'd deny ever knowing you in a heartbeat
But my heart beats for only you
If it wasn't for you
I'd be gone from here now
The missing me would be gone
And so would your ever thought of me
I hate seeing you by me
You never speak to me anymore
Or seem to want to talk to me
When you want to talk
Just come and tell me
For other than that forget it
I'll ignore you as you have done to me
There has been something missing from me
And that would be where the love for you was
Break my chains away from you
And I'll be fine for awhile
Until I fall for you again
And you're not there to catch me

Author's Note

old poem