Bogeyman Butcher

A monster can be found anywhere, in anyone. The story of "bogeyman butcher" Soliel. Part of my Monster Watch series (http://zee126.deviantart.com/gallery/59273336/Devious-Folder)

Started with the monster named you

Tore my tongue out of my mouth

Now I cannot force words to come

But I see things no one else does

For example, the teacher in the front

Gum flapping to cover up her intentions

Those people whom I call family

Hide behind masks labeled, “I love you”

The doctor knows that I know too well

None of his prescriptions are any good

Not like I need fixing up anyway

Rather I adjusted to the pain

I can hear their thoughts in my head

Something about how disgusting I am

How ironic, these beings from hell

Probably say I am the worst by far

They all whisper behind my back, I heard

Why try if no one believes?

Fine then, call me the insane mute one

Stick two steel wads in my brain

Kill me, why don't you?

If only, if only

Why can't the adults be kind for once?

If that were the type of world

Maybe I could make myself wanted

Who are they, who are they?

They are my friends, what they claim

If I could sleep in a little longer

The hands waiting beneath my bed

Can’t yank me under

Lay in a circle with flowers behind our ears

Smiling though we know we are not ok

You have already turned them against me

Now they stay out of pity

This girl I know shows me kindness

Too bad you took mine with my voice

No matter, one day I’ll wake up to find

Yet another monster standing in her shoes

Again, I hear their thoughts in my head

They yell that I’m no better, so what?

Raising my fists against my forehead

Tell me, how long do I have to live

Tell me, is this all right?

Too boring, too boring

Did you think I was afraid of you?

Smirking with a flashlight in my ears

Anyone else living in there?

Watching me, watching me

Pairs of polka dots in the darkness

I have come to call this normal

Zero cares about the shadows

In the corners of my eyes

You don't see, you don't see

Everything you try is hurting me

No matter what I look at

I can see monsters in anything

Terminate, terminate

I’ll start with the one I hate most

Glaring back at me in the mirror

It would be great if somebody

Could see what I see

My neck wrapped in clammy hands

This monster named me

Is saying bye-bye