But That Was Yesterday

You learn a lot about yourself when you compare today and yesterday.

Two years ago today I cried
And with a heavy heart I forced up a smile
But that was all a yesterday
The sun existed behind clouds after all

The cars drive through the interstate
A fraction of the adult world up ahead
The time is thirty past seven sunrise
As I hummed under my tongue

The closer I come to meeting you
The soon we will have to say goodbye
And although I know this is not our end
In the back of my mind I think, "What if?"

A year ago I made up words
Telling of some heartbreaking tale of mine
But then I chose to repeat once more
So how about an epilogue?

The snowflakes melted wet day by day
The air around us grew dry and hot
Although you waited seasons for the hour
I deeply cherished them, and even now

The paint of the bus never has changed
While I watched the world build through its window
Will I ever pass this ordinary place again?

I realized that I have grown to love it

But all of that was yesterday
Thinking back to when we were afraid
Just look at how far we have grown up
Never noticing the change

The life I live was once a dream
A future I told myself was unreal
Who am I even talking to?
I walked across the cement, one foot dragging back

To think I ever had a voice
And that I could have loved anyone
But that was all a yesterday
A yesterday where I wasted some time

I remember looking in the mirror
This morning I knew would never come back
"You're not alone, isn't it time
That you finally realize that?"

It only felt like a regular day
Like we will see each other tomorrow
Even though I know that is not true
Somehow we can still believe and say

"See you around, every last one of you,"
I have heard such a promise before
Tell me that it will not be forgotten this time

Suddenly I don't want to let go

But know once more everything will change
It might hurt, and I know I will cry
At least we took our chance to talk,
That you have made me smile

The lonely kids pray for miracles
Together we will open our eyes
Counting down to the last second
My feet walked aimlessly

My ears ring as we held our breaths
I never knew the warmth of an embrace until now
And yesterday I lived in a winter land
Too nervous to know that I was dying

And once again we say goodbye
With the purpose of place holding a hello
If we cross paths again so soon
I won't hesitate to scream, unlike yesterday
There'll be a day...