Whirlwind

My head's spinning, 

Like a carrousel in a tornado,

A whirlwind of emotions cling under my skin,

they wish to escape, 

and I want to free them, 

Leave with them, 

So I can watch as they all go their own separate ways, 

What a bittersweet day, 

But then I feel torn, 

Like pieces of me are missing, 

I should have never let them go, 

They were apart of me, 

Just wishing I, myself, could understand their needs, 

Not once did I think about them, 

but only me, 

in my own selfish ways I lost myself,

 

Thinking I was helping myself by freeing my demons, 

But those demons were apart of me, 

Here to remind myself why i would never be THAT me again, 

As I sit back and watch myself self destruct, 

I'm forced to blame myself,

For the choices I have made are the reasons I am where I am, 

Who can I blame but them?

It's their fault, 

not mine, 

The different parts of me I was scared for the world to see, 

The ones that made me- me, 

The reason I can no longer be who I am meant to be,

 

But who they wanted me to be, 

All along I thought I was damaged, 

& now im nothing more than broken..