who I am?

cliche tittle, for a cliche feeling. though we all know it to well

Who am I anymore?

I know who I want to be,

I know who I am being.

but who am I really?

am I the lover I wish to be?

am I the partier I am being?

or am I someone totally different who I haven't met yet?

I put my smile on every morning, 

one corner at a time

just like all of you

some of us are truly happy,

some of us are doing alright

and the rest of us have to fake it

am I really as hurt and torn apart inside as I think I am?

or it just an enemy telling me that I'm not worth it?

am I worth something more than what I think?

or am I just meant to sit here and live out each day?

where would I be right now if:

I didn't have this family?

I didn't have this life?

I didn't have my church?

I didn't have this body?

How often these thoughts float through my head.

Some days I love how creative I am

I love the talents I have been given.

I adore that I can pickup on your emotions before you can.

I love how I can feel everything to deeply.

other days I hate how deeply I feel things.

if you are sad, it makes me sad

your anger, makes me angry

but when you smile, I smile right back.

you will always find me thinking.

no matter how much I wish I could just turn off the writers mind I have been given.

frustration screams out of my lips when i do not get the chance to write.

when I stopped writing

things got bad.

I hated the person I became.

so now that I am writing again,

will I finally discover the person I am?

I sure hope so. 

Author's Note

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Reviews

[ThisIsBatman]

that's really good. sadly, i know these feelings all too well...

[Rosegal95]

thank you. keep your chin up! it gets better! I promise!

[ThisIsBatman]

thank you so much