15-07-09

Deep thinking hurts

 

failure feels like a funeral for hope, for faith, for dreams

a fall from the pedestal of expectations

I cried not for myself, but for my friends, family and enemies

the disappointment in the eyes of my friends

the doubt in the eyes of my family

the silent glee in the eyes of my enemies

the world came crashing down today

towers built so high in the sky

the boasts of ambition, aspirations and plans

become useless words for the wind

so I suffer the consequences of wasted efforts

endure the blame for a dangerous crime

I move on with no claim to pride or respect

the weight of failure holds me down

close to the ground where my heart has fallen

my soul is weak, my mind is confused

no one offers answers, no words of remorse

my eyes see a black wall that terrifies my dreams

my head feels heavy, my hands go numb

my knees shake and my mouth quivers

my eyes tear and my ears go read

under the weight of shame

 

but I will survive, I will lift the weights of failure

pick myself from the hard cold ground

be harder, better, faster, stronger,

tougher, higher, smarter, ....

as I cant change the past

I most do what I can to make the future!!!