04/05/16

Thinking out loud

Everybody lies

but you lied

i told you not to tell a soul

but you told the whole world

i am so disappointed 

that you lack control on your tongue

you told others of my failure

giving me more eyes to look at me

in pity amd shame

made me a laughing stock

as i ignore the guilt of my failure

as i ignore the pity in the eyes of society

you go  around looking for God

and act as if he has forsken me

am i so without hope

is God so mean that he needs us too be desperate to seek his face

how dissapointed should i be in myself

that it gives you so much grief

it hurts so badly

a thorn in my heart

your desperation has hurt my soul

so i will hide away

not tell you a thing

i wil not be responsible for the pain you feel

i will seperate myself from the dissapointment

it is too heavy to carry

it will slow down my progress

i will distance you from my heart

feel no emotion toward you grief

it is only something you can bear

i will leave you behind

and move on with my life