Coloured Perspective

Coloured Perspective

A Chapter by Nusquam Esse
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Free-verse poem

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“Forget everything. Open the windows. Clear the room. The wind blows through it.
You see only its emptiness, you search in every corner and don’t find yourself.


~ Franz Kafka






An abstract archeus

wandering the labyrinth

of intricacies

which lie beyond words

of imposing vernacular

 

Drifting in a sea

of contradiction

roaring ideas, lulling ideals

precious in their pure purpose

and primordial lack thereof

with such crushing beauty

and shattering despair

no agnostic or rational mind

could ever comprehend

this sense... of aesthetics

 

Words:

revolting bane of errant soul

penned with culminating distaste

for senescent intentions corrupted

like photographs embalming

vile vestiges, mimicked memory

parodied under pretense

of remembrance

reminiscence

evanescence...

a moment’s essence

...flickers out

 

How lonely must ‘LOVE’ feel

confined within four letters

secluded to solitary syllable

That despite the ardor

in my every fervent whisper

you’ll never feel more

than empty breath

 

Syntax, Semantics, Semiotics:

constrain the abstract

is that why they feel so devoid

of the meanings they tether?

Can ‘LOVE’ be more than letters?

 

A love that will never see within

abstruse souls, each vain breath

distorted through the veneer

of echoed utterance...

esoteric perspective

...unspoken

 

You said,


“I wish I was yellow,

like a sun burning bright

So you will never drift away

From someone, like me.”

 

“Why am I bland sienna?

A clump of useless dirt

fated to wander the cosmos--alone

too insignificant

to keep you.”

 

But to me, you ARE the Sun

Never constrained

with word or colour

because your light

holds everything from maroon

to violet; even your envied yellow


But it holds… so much more

 

More than just colours

reflected for the world


If Red is passion,

Yellow: your unbroken smile

Green: a comforting embrace

Indigo: those moments

we can be alone…

Than what of Radio to Gamma?

 

I want the whole spectrum

Sorrow and Joy; Fear and Hope

...Indistinguishable

Pain and Longing...

Those things that feel

so real. they are immaterial


More than just some pretty hues

in a cursory rainbow

I could draw with a crayon


Those indescribable impressions

never harried within letters

Pervasive as they are pure

like petrichor of purifying showers

under a Peruvian sky

never seen, only felt

Reminding me of how

I want every facet of you


in my life



© 2018 Nusquam Esse


Author's Note

Nusquam Esse
Wrote this during my lunch break at work; just sorta spewed out a lot of different things that have been on my mind. I realize that it may come across as hodgepodge, very loosely connected... but right now it all feels very related for me. That feeling that words can never be enough, and trying to convey to someone that they are more than they give themselves credit...

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I rarely find free-verse here, then the good ones are even harder to find. This is certainly the of the rare type. Your use of vocabulary is very exact as well as eccentric. The flow is there, the imagery is there and the transformation from one topic to the other whilst remaining connected to each other is also present. Very good write, Nusquam Bhai and I can totally relate to the 'hodgepdge' sensation, because 90% of the time, my works are a result of automatic writing.. I have to concentrate a lot on it to bring out the true intended (subconscious, if I may say,) meaning. I can understand how you must have crafted it afterwards.. Bravo!!

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Stonz P.

10 Years Ago

Haha. That is the magic of free verse: it seems to possess a life of its own.. foremost reason why I.. read more
Nusquam Esse

10 Years Ago

hah, I try many different forms, depending on my mood. If nothing else, learning rhyme and meter ca.. read more
Stonz P.

10 Years Ago

I tried rhyme and meter and it just was not meant for me; I mean, I felt bad, uneasy, like I had cag.. read more



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I absolutely love reading what you've poured out.
Free and unfiltered, you weave words eloquently.




Posted 9 Years Ago


Absolutely beautiful writing as always. I'm always astonished of how well written your works are, and I love the fact this was done over your lunch break. That takes true talent and passion, especially in the way you right. Great work x

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Nusquam Esse

10 Years Ago

Most of my stuff has been based on ideas, but this one was more just impressions and emotions... whi.. read more
phew!!!! witchcraft. and during your lunch break, too!
are you familiar with that belief that some great magicians or artists are helped by demons? I'm thinking about Led Zepplin, for instance. stairway to heaven. so, a thought just struck me. is this really you writing?

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Woody

10 Years Ago

oh come now, you're being hard on yourself. I'm sure Satan will welcome you with open arms. he'll us.. read more
Nusquam Esse

10 Years Ago

Turns out that Hell is a lot like the workplace, if you are too competent at your job you never get .. read more
Woody

10 Years Ago

lol that's funny. thank god I don't have that problem, as a teacher.
What can I say really for me this writing is so much something that I freely choose to read it. As I went throurgh especially the semantical inquisition posed, it invigorated me to a degree of fullfilment. I felt understood by what you wrote, I hope that make sense. The nature of words is such that knowing them and using them must be accompanied by meaning otherwise they fall short. It would not matter then what kind of juggling we do they will always feel lonely without the meaning that can only come through active will or actions if one must. And so this words seem to be directed to another human being but that is just a guess as it is not clear to me.

Resounding writing very beautiful.

Thankyou

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Nusquam Esse

10 Years Ago

Thanks for reading as always Rene. You are correct, this is directed to the most important person i.. read more
I rarely find free-verse here, then the good ones are even harder to find. This is certainly the of the rare type. Your use of vocabulary is very exact as well as eccentric. The flow is there, the imagery is there and the transformation from one topic to the other whilst remaining connected to each other is also present. Very good write, Nusquam Bhai and I can totally relate to the 'hodgepdge' sensation, because 90% of the time, my works are a result of automatic writing.. I have to concentrate a lot on it to bring out the true intended (subconscious, if I may say,) meaning. I can understand how you must have crafted it afterwards.. Bravo!!

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Stonz P.

10 Years Ago

Haha. That is the magic of free verse: it seems to possess a life of its own.. foremost reason why I.. read more
Nusquam Esse

10 Years Ago

hah, I try many different forms, depending on my mood. If nothing else, learning rhyme and meter ca.. read more
Stonz P.

10 Years Ago

I tried rhyme and meter and it just was not meant for me; I mean, I felt bad, uneasy, like I had cag.. read more
A million words, a single glance across a crowded room. It matters not the how of communication, as long as it is done.

Beccy.

Posted 10 Years Ago


They do not come across as unrelated at all. I may have formatted them differently, but you have your own style. I like this, but I can't describe it better than you already did ...

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Nusquam Esse

10 Years Ago

Thanks for reading, and I am glad that you could at least see some connection. I was just sort of v.. read more
I am pretty speechless with this one...your mind blows me away sometimes... think I will leave it at that..

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Nusquam Esse

10 Years Ago

Well, if it made you speechless, hopefully it was for all the right reasons, and not just because I .. read more
How on earth did you write this during a lunch break? It's absolutely astounding. As always you have chosen your words with precision, artfulness and clarity. A definite pleasure to read. At first I thought it was a little disconnected when you shifted from talking about the nature of words to talking about love, but it didn't take long to understand; words can be so frustrating and inadequate to express love. Overall, I'm amazed and envious that I didn't write such a poem myself! :)

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Nusquam Esse

10 Years Ago

Something just clicked while I was at work, and the second I went to lunch I threw my feet up on a c.. read more

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Added on October 7, 2014
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