Evolution of Thought

This poem has been written over about 10 years, and is a testament to my growth as a person. It is amazing to be able to remember what it felt like to passionately scribble!

(13yrs) Thoughts race around my mind constantly

Thinkingis like a drug for me

Each thought in my head an explosion

After awhile my mind gives way to erosion

Whether its the girl who started it all

Or the person witness to my downfall

Im me thats never gonna change

Even if at times I may seem strange

I say my mind runs deep, its true

My mind couldnt be a comparison to you

The things in my head are meant to be words

True feelings meant to be heard

These thoughts could cause a problem on paper

Thoughts turned into words by a word shaper

My mind is factory, my pen the machine

What they produce is rarely clean

An atom bomb is forged by the thoughts in my mind

If i set my thoughts off, the aftermath wouldnt be kind

Once theyre set loose, you cant rewind

Once theyre heard, minds will unwind

When my thoughts hit you, its like a train

Every thought I hav always in vain

Too bad these thoughts are going down the drain

(16yrs) To many things I think I thought

Thinking like this, its hard to stop

Curiosity, like a virus, has been caught

Spreading wildly until I drop

My mind, like the universe, is full of pieces 

Some close, others far, some more rare than most

So full of thoughts, bursting through the creases

I sift through and effortlessly coast

An adventure everytime, cant be anything less

Searching for the rarest thoughts of all

Like locked boxes or treasure chests

What you find might be your downfall

Split into realms by the way I think

In a complex pool of thought, I begin to sink

I try to remember how to stay afloat

Oh if only I had built a boat

Slipping further into the depths of madness 

While the cool chill of a tear shows saddness

Insanity is on the other end of Curiosity's call

Do you lose your mind or do you find it all

My  last thought, what will it be

Visions of peace, love and harmony

Or maybe a terrible reminder

Of what has become of this thought finder

(18yrs) Thoughts still flow rapid and free

But much more majestically 

Deeper now, wiser than before

Not as sporadic, and rising from my core

Truth, the leader of my path and thought

Guides me though Destiny's plot

Imagination, the force driving my passion

Divine creation comes from them clashing

As thoughts flow on, stillness in the bliss

It takes quiet some time to realize this

Flowing smooth with infinite posibility

Thoughts shape what around , changing reality

What once was randomly driven

Now follows a path my heart has given

Seeking out light and what was once known

Realizing that all my thoughts have truly grown

Thoughts are just intangible things

Giving way to emotion, and transcending wings

Emotion and intent, giving life to my flow

Towards light and bliss is where I'll go

Thoughts still flow, rapid and free

But much more majestically

Deeper now, wiser than before

Not as sporadic with more in store

(21yrs) Ive realized now, that thinking is forever

And that our connection to mind cant be severed

Is it my mind, or is it yours, did he or she have this thought

Or did it comes from the Universe's core

The world opens up when we step out of our own minds

We hear things we'd never hear, and see things we'd never find

Theres a sense of oneness, and an unhindered energetic flow

All things communicating, curiously trying to find out what Im beginning to know

Each thought a blessing or a curse

Each understanding within us, tested by the Universe for what its worth

An eternal act of balance and infinite creation

Constantly evolving the way we express our every vibration

Our conscious mind, the blind director of the day to day

Needs to be trained to be open in every way

Our subconscious is teeming with undiscovered facets of thought

Both minds need to be connected for true wisdom to be brought 

Connecting with self is the first step

Develop a mental push, and do 1000 reps

Become master of the thinker in your head

Because your thoughts are not the only thoughts your mind has said

Still on the ideas of yours and mine

Once you go deep enough its all divine

No possession of thought, action or emotion

Only a pure love for the fact we are here with a simple devotion

But while you are you, heres what you do 

Love yourself, and make it your truest true

For every thought we have is a conversation with us all

Even the people in galaxies so far away they look small

Thought is not our identity, it is a sophisticated networking tool

Telling physical reality how to organize itself, instead of being a primordial pool 

If we are not our thoughts, then who can we be

What does that mean to a mind who hasnt felt free

Test it out, let yourself be made to believe

Verify the fact your thoughts influence the reality being concieved 

And even more that its happening all around you

The mind of every atom choosing to be what it is should astound you

The mind in the atom, is same mind that makes us move on different scales

We are atoms to the Universe, chasing our own proverbial tails

We know we exist, yet we dont know what we are

Because just like atoms, without the purpose of a molecule youre not going far

This power of thought, comes with great responsibility

Being capable of everything, you need to practice humility 

All of our thoughts connected and relfected through each other

Every thought can either serve to raise or lower a  sister and brother

When you go past thought, and feel this connection

When you see all "your own" thoughts in the Universal reflection

Something happens to the way thoughts flow through you

Its like each thought is supercharged with the energy of new hues

Colors and vibrations you couldnt even have imagined before

All blooming from your heart, reaching for the minds core

When that connection is made, and heart and mind become one

You will have mastered this reality, and the Operation of the Sun