Just Another Guy

A message for the past lovers

To A,
You are my best friend, born in August.
For five years, You're the guy I love the longest.
They don't know the things we've done
Things I deemed awry but fun.

We crossed the line of friendship,
But we never passed the relationship.
We're just friends that taste each other's lips
We seize every moment and left nothing to slip.

Maybe things didn't work between us
It's unclear 'cos we never had a chance to discuss.
Though I'm happy 'coz nothing's change
We just went back to being just friends.

To J,
You're everything that I don't like,
But you just opened my heart and strike.
I was mesmerized by your eyes,
It was easy for you to made me believe your lies.

You're the subject of my first poetry,
And now the last person I want to see.
You resemble a malicious clickbait,
I shouldn't have pressed at any rate.

Now, You're my greatest heartbreak,
You who said words that completely fake.
But thank you for that pretext,
If it weren't for you, I might never date the next.

To W,
With you was the longest relationship I had.
I was once your girl, and it made me glad.
You love me wholeheartedly despite my flaws,
Supported and respected me without a pause.

You made scrapbooks and love letters,
The gift and effort I will keep forever.
Even our relationship went sideways,
Our memories together will stay.

Everything we had, I don't want to forget
But the only thing I truly regret,
Is the destroyed friendship
We worked hard to built.

To R,

Everyone, including me, defines it as forbidden.
Something that should be ashamed of and hidden.
The border that strictly not to crossed,
Because of the pain and suffering, it will cost.

When you came, you brought disarray.
You painted my whole life gray,
I considered you as my worst mistake.
Memories with you are everything I forsake.

Still, I cannot wish that I never met you,
Because you are the biggest lesson I got through.
You taught me to be careful to who I trust,
That love is something I shouldn't rush.

To I,
They said you are my special friend
When I'm with you, I don't have to pretend.
Just looking at you put a smile on my face,
You have this ability to make my heart race.

You're not my past nor my present,
To put you in my future is what I intend.
We don't make promises we can't keep,
But what we have now is what I want to upkeep.

I don't want to add to your burden,
I know change of feelings made the future uncertain.
We have separate dreams and plans to grow
For now, It's okay that we just go with the flow