Missed

Everything seems gloomy
Without knowing why it turned out like this
Looking for the answer by blaming people around
That did not do anything to make me feel like that.

There's always a time when I feel so empty inside
But I don't know any reason behind that.
All I know is there's always someone to blame
To  lessen the sadness I felt

This melancholic time that hit me so hard
Made me realize the reason behind my sadness
It's not that I don't know the reason,
It is denying it even if I knew it

I just missed something, someone.
Every chance I did not take
Every dream I have forgotten
Every person who left and whom I left

Every person who hurt me and whom I hurt
I just missed everything that fades in my life.
I just missed who I usually am.
I just missed it, that's all.