Finally awake

regrets

I have finally awoken from a deep slumber
The blues and the sunshine are gone
It is not my premonitions that have betrayed me
It is me, my old self that has transformed.

Yes I had false allusions
Hopes doped with honey shoe laces tied neat
A country hoping to be uplifting
A country making me seek.

But then I dabbled here and there
And babbled a thousand expletives with some
Those with patience have frankly endured
Those without has left me blue.

I do not claim to be a writer
Nor a connoisseur of great thoughts
I am simple, I twist my words
I am mundane, I distort my thoughts.

But frankly now I have unresolved issues
Thousands of impotent questions
Manic depressive or perennial depressions
I guess I suffer a lot.

In times like these
Nothing seems to make sense
Neither the past promises or hopes of glory
Nor illustrious futures fading await.

I can't just pay a heavy price
For a grand scale ego like thing
I so miss my simple life
Choices, to do things at will.

I hate everything I have in here
The misery, the hypocrisy and the mess
They will tell me I enlisted in give-ups list
But screw them I don't care

I want to take that long odyssey
Into the path of discovery
Into a long lost land which is mine
Which will always be and always be.

© Nothing Personal. February 4, 2011.

Reviews

[.]

. amen ! ... and nothing can stop you ... and nothing can stop you ... plus ... nothing can stop you ... because thou art unstoppable ...

manzilein vo nahin jo bekaboo hain
jo bekaboo hain, vo sirf zindagi ka ek ehsaas hain
jo zindagi ke ehsaan hain
unka silsila toh abhi shuru hi hua hai

[OT]

nice!!!! indeed nothing can stop you now!! the vocabulary was great and well used, the structure was great as always!! another brilliant poem from NP!!

[Ki]

The fourth stanza was great! I really enjoyed this... Nice flow. Thanks for sharing!

[Ruminating Archaeologis..]

I like the repetition in the first four stanzas, you have a wide vocabulary it seems and you use it well. cool.

[SOUL LESS]

Watch the movie "wide awake".