Questions From a Heartsick Teen.

We all seem to doubt ourselves. Maybe that's just how we were hardwired. Or maybe something in our past has damaged that. But when there's someone who wants the best for you, shouldn't you just accept them? Shouldn't you hang on to that one person who would do anything for you, even if it means walking away forever, even though it would kill them? If there's that one person who doesn't judge you, even when they believe you are making a huge mistake, for anything that you do, shouldn't you hold on and never let go?

We all make mistakes when we're young. But how do we know what is permanent or transient? How do we know whether or not to intervene and try to prevent a lifetime of pain and misery, even if you could walk out at any time? Even if they are telling you to move on, to find someone else? How can we move towards our future when we don't know who or what will be in it?

For me, I don't want to tell you to stop, but I don't want to see you go down this path. I'm worried about you and I want you to be safe, but I realize that I'm a hypocrite here, because I would risk my life over and over for you. I guess what I'll have to do is ask you to not do that around me, because I won't join you in that. I'd rather you not do it at all, but I guess you'll do it either way, so I'm just going to be here for you and swallow my comments, like I always do. Just, I don't know...    ...I know you think this is the best thing right now, but I want you to at least consider what will happen a few years down the road. Not twenty, thirty, forty years, but maybe ten or fifteen. Will you be fine, or will you be deep in a cycle of self destruction. Will you be able to get out if you are? That's why I worry about this, not the long term, because, let's face it, if we live long enough for that to show it's face, we've lived long enough for others things to surface as well.

Yet, I still don't understand why you say you're wasting my time. If there was someone else, I wouldn't be so...   ...open with my emotions, so ready with my responses, especially when we're alone. So, yeah, I understand I could move on to someone else, but there isn't anyone else I'd rather be with right now. So, no, I'm not going to move on, I'm going to be right here. I understand we're young, and I'm not going to say we'll be together forever, because let's be perfectly honest, only a handful of high school couples actually work out and last for many years. So odds are that we won't be together forever, but maybe we will be. Maybe you're the person I am supposed to be with, but maybe you aren't. If you aren't then there's a reason Eros put us together, just we may not know it for a long time. Personally, I've accepted everything that comes with you, even your habits, both old and developing, even if I disagree with some. Yet you are who I want to be with.

I love you. Just be careful, ok? Thank you, Chipmunk.