Selfish

Do you think at times,

That our thoughts will cross,

Whenever I think of warmth?

I'm stuck in this place,

A familiar face-

Would help me establish trust.

 

Gone are the moments of sweet and kind-

Happiness insists I drink up.

But misery isn't too far behind,

Misdirecting with jealousy and lust.

 

If all I know, is an error,

And I'm just wasting effort.

Then pull me back-

With your warm hands,

Let me know what I've been missing.

I'm just lying. I'm just dying.

And this darkness-

Is disturbing...

Is it too much,

To ask for saving?

I despise looking pitiful.

 

I hold my hand to faith,

Hoping she'd embrace

Me- even with all my stains.

Would she keep me strong?

Allow me to belong?

Or will she abandon and stray...

 

I am a soul with plenty of masks-

One for each occasion and day.

But the facial expressions won't really last-

Eventually this smile will decay.

 

When they're shattered.

When they're broken.

And I'm left weak, and wide open.

Will you help me,

Fix my damage,

Or teach me that it's alright to hate?

When the sun fades,

And the night burns.

Everyday passed, is how I learn.

And I'll break you-

If you hurt me.

Doubling this tragedy.

 

It'll go on.

It'll go on.

And so on.

And so on.

Until I find my relief-

And my selfishness finally knows peace.