I can't forgive you.

All it is is venting.

The event has passed,

The mourning should be over,

But it won't leave my shoulders.

The issues stay present-

Looming over me and my decisions.

My heart is in shambles-

In a heap with my spirit and soul.

 

I wanted to hope,

I think I've given faith too many chances.

We all make mistakes,

But this is too much...

How can I ever talk to you again?

I used to sing joyfully to you-

But now I question,

If you were even listening at all.

 

My pockets are empty,

Not much different from-

My outlook on the future.

Friends urge me on,

And I'm trying-

But I keep on staggering,

And tripping over my self-made misfortunes.

 

What do I have left to cling onto-

But the knowledge that;

Once you're so far down-

The only way to go is up?

And I'm not trying to dig my own grave,

I'm only trying to find balance,

And harmony within this battlefield,

That's so littered with dying dreams and roaring nightmares.

 

I'd normally turn to you-

But you abandoned me,

During so many times of need.

Sometimes,

I look at your picture,

Stare into your eyes,

And then I remember-

You're just a well-made myth.

 

But we all need those to survive.

Human beings need something to trust in.

And you didn't work for me.

So I've started looking elsewhere.

Everything is almost an exact copy of you.

Except, when I look deep in the mirror...

And see within.

 

I realized-

I'm all I have.

 

And it's hard being alone...

But it's harder forcing myself to beLIEve.

Reviews

[Amy]

wow Ren verry emotional piece I love it.
its so full of feeling so much is said.
beautiful