My own Prison

I wrote this when i couldnt sleep while locked up.

I have made my own prison,

Where my cries are never heard.

My own prison is full of the acts of my own mistakes

My friends faces haunt me day and night,

My memories haunt me though these sleepless nights,

Never letting me sleep, never letting me breathe a sigh of relief

My shattered child hood force these walls of this prison of pain to tear me apart.

I hold on to what is left of my sanity.

Holding for dear life, I know if I let go I will be lost forever

My own prison is my own fault

I am left with these mistakes of what I have done.

I am in the dark,

What is left of my soul cries out to be saved

But no one helps.

As the wolf howls at me from a distance

The painful memories of my past come up

Just like before they stab at me and try to destroy what’s left

Of a shatter man.

The blood of my friends stain my hands and my life.

While my own blood stains what’s left of my broken heart.

The joyful life I see others have,

Makes me sad.

Others will never know the pain I have gone though,

Nor will they know the horror I have been though.

Within this prison of mine I hear the voices of my dead loved ones.

I hear death himself telling me,

“You have created your own Prison and hell”

So I sit and wait for someone to come by and notice a broken man laying on the ground.

Reviews

[RonnieBreight]

I like this because there are not many poems or writing where they say they got themselves there, but in this, this "shattered man" is taking responsibility for his actions. He says "I have made my own prison." It's really refreshing. Also, the last line is beautiful, because it's like he wants other people to see where he's at, so they won't make the same mistakes. Like he can have an impact on someone else and they'll change what they're doing, or think of him differently.
You did an amazing job.

[sisyqueen2008]

My father is in jail and when Iread this it made me kind of sad because I imagine that is how he feels, but at the same time his actions bought him time. I like this poem because it's so realistic and opts people to think before making life-changing decisions with negative consequences

[Dimples87]

This is a very revealing self-portrait. Not only of the way you see yourself but it's so true to the form of your personality that you allow us to enter your thoughts as the reader. I respect your genuine thought process and how you allow us to go there with you. Great write as it is very honest, genuine, and reflective.

[loowzerX]

this reminds me of Creed's song - in my prison or whatever it was called lol.
I like this, very well written and very realistic.

[Faint]

people will notice. but few will stop and help.
its not a life, its a reality.
choose life and you find joy in the simpler things.

[Kelley]

Keep your chin up. Life does getter better.
Maybe you just need a better outlook.
Great poem by the way