scared

time and time again 

I think things through

then over think

again and again 

I fight

within myself

wanting one side to win

wanting to let things be

but how can I?

when all I do is regret

not jumping at my chance

not chasing you

staying on the sidelines

watching you walk away

with a smile on my face

lying to you

lying to myself

but! 

what if I do chase you

what if I tell you

what if I show you what I got

lay my soul bear 

for all to see

let me scars show

let me flaws be known 

will you see me the same

will you see the change?

will it be enough

to give you

what you need 

to keep smiling 

to keep your spirit up

to show the world

that you got someone 

to hold you up?

what should I do

where should I go

what am I to you?

who am I to you? 

can you help me

find these answer 

that have been missing

that has been gone for too long

give me an answer

yes or no

please show me 

what you want