"It's a feeling that could last a life time!" But not for long....

What have you done? What have I done to deserve this?!

If this isn't goodbye
If this isn't a farewell
Then why are you gone?
This tugging,
This yearning,
"It's a feeling that could last a life time!"
So many tears!
So much pain!
And over one small connection!
Why?!
I open my heart,
But then immediately,
someone slams me back into it!
But wait...
I...
No longer,
HA!
I No longer have one!
Because you stole it!
No...
That's not true.
I gave it to you.
Thinking I could trust you!
But what did you do with the fragile thing?!
You broke it!
You destroyed it!
Leaving me to remake it,
Out of dust.
I thought that...
I could make you mine for life.
But you certainly did lie to me,
Through your own cursed lips.

Over at my filled up trash can,
Filled with broken dreams,
Broken life,
my dream of you, starts to crumple, but not all the way, just barely.
It taunts,

tearing forth at my weakened mind.
It mocks,
attacking my strengthen Ego.
Why?
Why does something tell me,
"You still love me!"
Or,
"You still care about me!"
WHEN YOU DON'T!
WHY DO I NOT HATE YOU?!
WH-
...
Oh...
I think I know why...
Why It mocks,
why it taunts,

Why I can't make you mine,
Why I gave you my heart,
Why there's so much pain,
Why there's so much tears,
why there is tugging,
Why there is yearning,
Why this isn't farewell,
Why this isn't goodbye.
It's because,
I'm
Still in love with you.

But not for long....