Exhale

I just wanted to see you hurt for a moment.

Just to see if you really see what you do to me.

I'm replaying the suffering that you made me go through with different people.

You are such a contradiction.

Don't give me advice,

I know a downward spiral when I see one.

Don't try to play daddy,

I have one thank you.

Don't try to sweet talk me, or say s**t "you think that I might want to hear", because b***h you aren't fooling anyone.

If Im that important, then I would SEE it.

Someone like me who isn't afraid to love, but Im not used to getting loved back, so I know what to look for.

What's missing. It's not there right now, you're treating me like everyone else.

Naturally I'm going to be a smart a*s, yes.

Naturally, I'm gonna bite back, just not verbally.

I didn't talk to you, because

I'm tired of it.

I am not one to confront anything,

I just watch it sink to the murky bottom.

I have heartaches of waiting for  you to prove to me all the "truth" that you promised me was real.

Im tired of having you call me someone who..

I "freak out" but today,

I get a little distant, and youre there causing drama.

No time to think, you're breathing on me wanting attention,

I drew myself away.