Little Lies

Often we wonder why others may or may not do certain things
Although we may be that "others" ourselves
To tell someone that they love someone or don't love someone, be it the truth or untrue
To look in their eyes knowing that you don't have the same intentions or on the same page but pretend you do
While every glance through his eyes show that his intentions are pure and everything he does is for both you and his future
While he thinks you're building a future together, you're building temporary lies... Oh when will he realise... When will I realise

Belonging with someone feels great, although you know that he isn't the one
To know that you have his attention 24/7 and that he will do everything you desire
To know that you can depend on him for pretty much everything
To know that you don't have to struggle or live in discomfort
To know that he is one of a kind and special... But not the one for you
To know that I can walk away from the relationship with no hard feelings but leave him damaged

But is it so selfish to want that... On a temporary basis Or at least till I meet The One
I love him, but probably not as much he loves me
I care about him but not to the extend he cares for me
As my friend once told me, we've all been the starter snack till the main course is served and I'm still patiently waiting for my main course

It is easier to live a life of lying than honesty for now
No guilty conscious or regrets... At least I'm honest with myself... At least I think so
& I can only hope that karma does not exist