Self image

I keep going to therapy to fix my self image
But nothing is really helping and im not feeling any different
I went from smiling down highways at 3:36 to not leaving my room for days knowing this won't end quick
So I'll just tuck into my bed scrolling mindlessly on my phone
And im so damn scared of what will happen when im alone
Theres no light at the end of this tunnel, and im thinking theres no way
Life is passing me by, and im stuck here in this mental cage
I'll never forgive myself for hurting you
I cant even live with myself, maybe when im 52
Ill be a farmer on the mountain with no worries in my head
And ill finally move on from all the things that i did
It'll be quiet in my head all my thoughts will burn out
And ill be happy with how ive turned out
So i hope every day that you will find some contentment
Meanwhile ill keep going to therapy to help my self image