Beaten, butchered, battured, shattered and cracked

A list of things that I want vs. What I think I deserve

I deserve to have my heart shattered and cracked
Like a mirror does when the man in it can’t look back
But what i want to have is my heart stolen and saved
But of course we both know that’s something i’d say
See i deserve shooting stars that don’t work
And love that hurts but i want stars that don't fall
Because when things fall they hurt
I think i deserve the wrong side of a good deal
The kind were only one person leaves
Better than before so it’s kind of hard for me to
Want a home where goodbyes aren’t written on the doors, and floors
See if i deserve a million things none of them are you
That’s hard to say, but we both know it’s true
See you’ve been beaten, battered, butchered and bruised badly
Debating on if you deserve to be used
And i want to tell you how my trailer feels without you there
But i deserve no such thing
It’s a burden that i can’t share
The stars were just right
Like they were painted on sight
Not a single one fell, see, i took the fall for them that night
If i ever say sorry it’s not because accountability is lacked
It’s because i know you can’t accept it
And i deserve to have my heart beaten, butchered, battured, shattered and cracked