It Gets Better

Mentions of suicide I wrote this while in the hospital after having an attempt, just please read it. It's very emotional and some of you should be able to relate.

This week i cried until i couldn't see

And this week i rotted out all of my teeth

And this week i learned with my eyes and my ears

That i might not be ready to properly sing

To a crowd full of people, they're cheering for me

But my mouth is glued shut and my lips can't be freed

And i'm gasping for air, underwater alone

And this is why i do not answer my phone

This week my life really lost all its meaning

And this week i cried until i was left screaming

And this week i forgot why i am still going

And this week i stopped talking to all my friends

And this week i think that i finally lost it

And this week my brain turned off, and i got numb

And this week i'm hurting, i'm hurting so bad

And this week i'm writhing in pain from my head

But it's not from a headache, it's from scars and wounds

That haven't been healed yet because i assumed

I was okay without pills or therapy

But i need someone now, and i need someone, please

And this week i prayed for a fast remedy

That i know wouldn't come and i see in my dreams

And my dad he is there and he said, "Son, i'm proud of who you're going to be"

And i said, "I will be no one, i'm covered in dirt

And i think that i might give in to this hurt"

And he looked at me gently, and his eyes filled tears

And i was quickly overcome by all my worst fears

And the wind started howling, it brushed through my hair

And i looked for someone, but there was no one there

And the ground dropped beneath me, and my heart left my chest

And i screamed with no sound, and i screamed far too loud

And i screamed as i smashed into rock, into ground

And my body was broken and i thought i was finally free

And the silence without my heartbeat was deafening

And a face appeared from thin air in front of me

And i said, "Is this the end?", almost like a plea

And the mouth spoke and said, "You came here too quick

You had much to do, but you were just sick

You had people to love and you were somebody's somebody

But your heart was hurting, and your brain started rotting"

I regretted it instantly, and i wished for it back

Before i was falling and it all turned black

And they tell you that your life flashes before your eyes

But they don't tell you how it feels when you realize

And they don't tell you what the view is like from halfway down

And they don't tell you the horrible deafening sound

And they don't tell you their reaction to reading your letter

And they don't tell you that no matter what, it always gets better

So please

Please stay

Because it gets better

It gets better

Please stay

It gets better

Reviews

[Boring~Potato]

This is a compelling and emotionally resonant poem that effectively captures the experience of struggling with severe mental health challenges. Its raw honesty and powerful imagery make it a memorable and impactful piece. It's a testament to the power of poetry to explore difficult emotions and to connect with readers on a deeply human level. It would resonate with anyone who has experienced similar struggles and would hopefully encourage them to seek help.

[ashley]

absolutely heart shattering poem, this is gorgeous. so glad you're still here to share your voice & your beautiful words with the world