Lost

Eyes like the ocean, so hypnotizing 

When she left that was a moment of silence 

The love that she showed me was real, it was priceless 

Now she’s gone and i feel like i’m lifeless 

I knew someday that i’d probably lose her

Cuz why in the f**k would she stay with a loser 

If i ain’t got her what’s the point of a future 

We met on the internet, i can’t compute her 

She left my head spinning i still don’t get it 

I thought what we had was truly poetic 

Now it’s too late, i can’t change my perspective 

I stay up late, wide awake with depression 

Everything seems to be triggering flashbacks 

I don’t know how i could ever move past that 

We’re not conventional people we’re abstract 

I can’t accept that i messed up my last chance 

Everyones better off staying away from me 

Yeah, don’t even pray for me 

Can’t find a purpose i’m wandering aimlessly 

I can’t find any sense of complacency 

It’s hard to live, but easy to die

Sometimes i think i should give into my mind 

I spend way too much time dressing up lies 

I was stupid to think that she would be my bride 

She did what's best for her, she dodged a bullet 

I’m empty she wants to live life to the fullest 

There’s too much weight on my brain i can’t pull it 

She was my home, but now that place is ruined 

I’ll never change i’m romantic and passionate 

My sense of love is enhanced, i can’t manage it 

Call me affectionate, call me inadequate 

Call me whatever you want i’ma answer it 

When i make poetry i reopen wounds 

It takes a toll on me, i play it cool

It’ll catch up eventually, i’m already doomed

I’ma die alone on the dark side of the moon 

I’m lost again i guess the cycle continues 

Time passed but it didn’t resolve any issues 

An endless allusion is what i slipped into 

My eyes only see her 

I miss you 

Broken into pieces 

Can’t seem to find any reason 

To keep on fighting and breathing

I’ll try, but i’ve been depleted 

Never feel like i’m needed 

I’m happiest when i’m dreaming 

I’m silent, inside i’m screaming

Disguising my scars, i’m bleeding

Discrete i been keeping secrets 

Appearances are deceiving 

You never know what you’re seeing 

I’m hurting and i’m still not healing 

Reviews

[D. Mansfield]

I felt it for sure. Good writing

[Chris]

You hit on nearly all the insecurities teens - both male and female, list out today. That makes this poem relevant to our and future times.

[GlendaK]

Is that hip hop?

Dang! I could hear music in the background!

So freaking beautiful!