Too Much Kryptonite

Too Much Kryptonite

A Poem by Nobody
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Dreams

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when i was 5, i wanted to be a superhero 
i would bounce around walls, and use force to protect all
superman would visit me, and i would smile at him, and thin we'd defeat the Villans 
see, i didn't need anyone to play with, because i was happy with myself 
imaginary wars, and pretend heroism 
when i was 8, i wanted to be a soldier 
so i wrote stories about great adventures fighting a war
and through my words i soared high above burning landscapes 
and kept my people safe 
i mean, it didn't matter who i was fighting, as long 
as i was fighting, because that's what a hero did 
i wanted to be a hero 
and i wanted to save everyone around me 

when i was 11, i wanted to make people happy 
so i cracked jokes to pass the time 
and i would never rhyme 
and forced my parents to listen to the same s****y jokes day, after day, after day 
god i love them, becasue they laughed even after the thousandth time 
and i would smile and hug them as my heart grew from the sound of their chuckles 
i mean, i just wanted to make them happy 

when i was 14 i felt lost 
so i got a bike and go riding around in the woods 
i would zoom past hikers, discover new worlds, and find myself 
i found dirt paths leading to nowhere 
and i found it was comforting 
so i earned for a concrete jungle just waiting to be explored 
i wished to be isolated in nature with nothing but the trees around me 
i mean, i wanted to find myself, while searching the woods for answers 

so i sit 
at 17 
while looking back at everything i've ever wanted to be 
and how no matter what, how i feel that i would never be happy with, 
with just being me 
because instead of wanting to be a hero 
i desperately want someone to be a hero and save me from my own mind 
and instead of wanting to defeat the villains 
i want to defeat the Lex Luther that lives inside the superman of my own mind 
and to replace my want to be a soldier 
is a want to end my own mental country, and use bullets to do so 

and instead of wanting to tell jokes and make people laugh i just want them to hear me 
but they can't hear me over the sound of their laughter because i don't know how to breathe 
i don't know how to sing
i wish i knew how to sing 
because maybe if it sounded pretty they would hear my plea but they won't
because now i want my ,mountain bike to crash 
i don't want to explore the dirt i want to be buried in it 
i still wanna find myself but i wanna find it my way 
i don't want them telling me, directing me, instructing me 
pulling the corners of my mouth up in a crooked smile like 
i'm the puppet and they're the masters 
i just want to find what i'm seeking after 
because trust me, i still want to be a hero, and i still want to get the one
i just want to be remembered, and i want to be sure 
that when i throw myself off this building like superman waiting to fly 
that hopefully no one i love will shed too many tears and cry 
because i just want to be a hero 
and when i don't grow up 
i want to be a hero 

© 2024 Nobody


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Added on October 2, 2024
Last Updated on October 2, 2024
Tags: dreams, poetry, mental health

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Nobody
Nobody

Canton, MI



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A Poem by Nobody