Too Much KryptoniteA Poem by NobodyDreamswhen i was 5, i wanted to be a superhero i would bounce around walls, and use force to protect all superman would visit me, and i would smile at him, and thin we'd defeat the Villans see, i didn't need anyone to play with, because i was happy with myself imaginary wars, and pretend heroism when i was 8, i wanted to be a soldier so i wrote stories about great adventures fighting a war and through my words i soared high above burning landscapes and kept my people safe i mean, it didn't matter who i was fighting, as long as i was fighting, because that's what a hero did i wanted to be a hero and i wanted to save everyone around me when i was 11, i wanted to make people happy so i cracked jokes to pass the time and i would never rhyme and forced my parents to listen to the same s****y jokes day, after day, after day god i love them, becasue they laughed even after the thousandth time and i would smile and hug them as my heart grew from the sound of their chuckles i mean, i just wanted to make them happy when i was 14 i felt lost so i got a bike and go riding around in the woods i would zoom past hikers, discover new worlds, and find myself i found dirt paths leading to nowhere and i found it was comforting so i earned for a concrete jungle just waiting to be explored i wished to be isolated in nature with nothing but the trees around me i mean, i wanted to find myself, while searching the woods for answers so i sit at 17 while looking back at everything i've ever wanted to be and how no matter what, how i feel that i would never be happy with, with just being me because instead of wanting to be a hero i desperately want someone to be a hero and save me from my own mind and instead of wanting to defeat the villains i want to defeat the Lex Luther that lives inside the superman of my own mind and to replace my want to be a soldier is a want to end my own mental country, and use bullets to do so and instead of wanting to tell jokes and make people laugh i just want them to hear me but they can't hear me over the sound of their laughter because i don't know how to breathe i don't know how to sing i wish i knew how to sing because maybe if it sounded pretty they would hear my plea but they won't because now i want my ,mountain bike to crash i don't want to explore the dirt i want to be buried in it i still wanna find myself but i wanna find it my way i don't want them telling me, directing me, instructing me pulling the corners of my mouth up in a crooked smile like i'm the puppet and they're the masters i just want to find what i'm seeking after because trust me, i still want to be a hero, and i still want to get the one i just want to be remembered, and i want to be sure that when i throw myself off this building like superman waiting to fly that hopefully no one i love will shed too many tears and cry because i just want to be a hero and when i don't grow up i want to be a hero
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Added on October 2, 2024 Last Updated on October 2, 2024 Tags: dreams, poetry, mental health Author
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