I can't think of a title for this one .-. Sorry.A Chapter by Nix is typing...Can I just say “I’m sad” Or will that make for boring poetry? Can’t I express an emotion directly? Can’t I do anything correctly? No, cuz I do everything abjectly Can I show signs of self-pity? Can I join the “I hate myself” committee? Y’all wanna see My pain through the art of poetry? I’m dying slowly But not nearly fast enough Life is getting pretty damn tough It’s all getting pretty damn rough Nothing even matters anymore I matter nevermore “You’re a w***e" I’m breaking down Softly screaming inside my head Fakes smiles all around! When no one actually cares about me in this small town My head filling me with dread Me, wishing I was dead Would that Prozac have worked? If outta my hand, it wasn’t jerked If I kept taking it day by day Would my happiness come back out to play? Am I depressed? And you wonder why I’m so stressed You wonder why I’m always distressed Why I’m such a big, huge mess Always feeling like I’m pressed Up against the wall I just can’t have it all I can’t be smart People only ever see me as a tart Am I worth anything? Will anyone miss me when I’m gone? “No, Nix, not a soul will miss you when you’re gone” You’re just another peon You’re like a puzzle missing a piece” Never again will I have my peace… Disturbed by the voices living inside my head Telling me, “You’ll never be good enough” “Life’ll always be rough” “You’ll never heal from the childhood trauma you had to endure” “That s**t’ll stick with you for the rest of your days” “It’s the reason you’re so insecure” “Don’t stress, Nix, It’s all just displays None of this is real Neither is your malaise You’re just part of someone else’s dreams But it seems like you’re always following all those stupid cliches Just to receive some stupid bouquets But we, The Voices, will always rephrase The way love sent to you that is conveyed And all the ways You get praise We’ll always twist and turn the phrase And turn it into hate.” © 2021 Nix is typing...Author's Note
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10 Reviews Added on March 8, 2021 Last Updated on March 12, 2021 AuthorNix is typing...Athens, GAAboutUh, what can I say? Hi! I'm Phoenix (Nix) 🔥 Most of my poems are in my books :) except for Phoenix Parker, that's a book I wrote last year. Most of my writing is poetry, I'm always o.. more..Writing
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