Writing, writing, writing.

Omg, I just wanna go to sleep.

Sometimes it’s just better to close your eyes and let sleep take over

“Close the damn computer and go to sleep already, Nix”
I keep trying to tell myself

My body fighting sleep as I type on

Writing, writing, writing.

My stomach emits a guttural growl

“Oh, s**t, have I eaten today?”

I ask myself

“No, you’ve been too busy writing”

“For god’s sake, Nix, it’s 5:18 in the afternoon,

Take better care of yourself ”

But all I want to do is write.

Stay up until four in the morning

Staring at my computer screen

Writing, writing, writing.

It’s not like I make money from it

It’s not like I’m super famous or anything

I mean, sure, the masses are important to me,

But it’s always been like that, I’m a gen z

Born into a world of social media and body dysmorphia

So I was bound to catch it

Bound to want approval and hate myself when I didn’t get it

I guess that’s the curse of being seventeen, huh?

Life seems so big and important, 

Always worrying about the future

Always working

Always writing

Writing, writing, writing.

D****t, I just want to go to sleep.

Just go to sleep already, Nix ...

Author's Note

I wrote this while I was drifting off. It popped in my head and I had to get it down immediately.
Thoughts?

Reviews

[Harmony Lee]

This stream-of-consciousness piece reminds me of myself at 17 although I am 26 now and certainly have had a somewhat distinct experience both individually and generationally. There is a question here of what do you value and prioritize, whether or not that is recognized by you, and how is that influenced by a perception of what society demands or what you demand of yourself. My advice, should you want it, is to be compassionate with yourself, and remember that this involves not only such basic necessities as sleeping and eating, but also perhaps writing and certainly a kinder internal voice towards yourself. I wish you well. Thanks for sharing and inviting me to read.

[Nix is typing...]

I really appreciate the advice, and I'm really gonna take that into consideration, I really appreciate you taking the time to read and review my work :)
I think you're on your way to being a top reviewer, I see your name a lot on my feed, reviewing and commenting a lot. I'm glad my work could be one that helps you get to the top! :)
I wish you well also. I'm glad you stopped by :)

[Harmony Lee]

It may be easier said than done although certainly it is worth considering. Honestly I am new to the site and I don't even know what constitutes being a top reviewer; I am glad and grateful merely to read and review such wonderful writings. Thank you!

[Nix is typing...]

Ahh...well...welcome to the cafe! I hope you enjoy your stay :)
Feel free to send me read requests for poetry if you like :)