Overthink

This was a text I sent to my (now ex) boyfriend when we had gotten in a fight

Head in my hands

Frustrating

I'm sorry I've upset you

We needa work on our communicating

Wish I could make it up

But I guess the best way would be...

To go ahead and let you go to f*****g sleep

I know you're tired, 

And you don't have time to talk to me. 

I feel like such a bad girlfriend, 

So I'll just sit here and overthink 

Overthink about last year on Valentines day, 

You gave a heart full of chocolates,

Ooo, what a daring way to play

Overthink about what DUMB S**T I have to say. 

Overthink about how f*****g crazy I am about your tall a*s. 

Overthink about how fragile I am with you,

Like glass. 

Overthink about you, 

all the f*****g time, 

It's like you're stuck in my head, 

but I can't help it, you're so sublime

But your words sting 

Like a cut stung with a lime 

Alright, I feel like a dumbass now, 

I'm gonna go,

But before I do 

just know: this dumbass 

*points at self* loves you

Author's Note

Thoughts?

Reviews

[barleygirl]

This is top-notch writing. One of my frequent criticisms is for messages that describe one person being so hooked on another, it's like he/she has only this other person as his/her identity. I don't think its healthy to approach love this way. That being said, I can overlook my dislike for such a dependent mindset becuz you express yourself so powerfully, & you are so completely lacking in inhibitions, so dynamic & playful, it's impossible not to love this poem & adore this person who could be so completely head-over-heels about another person. Reading this, it just occurred to me that we all disagree about lots of stuff, but the best writing is so arresting, we let go of our dislikes! (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[Nix is typing...]

It makes me happy to see that my poem is good enough to overlook one of your frequent criticisms! I feel so special reading this review 🥰 I've always felt like I fall too fast for a person, but the one I'm with now, worked really hard to gain my trust back after he broke up with me the first time. So, I've you can definitely say I've fallen head-over-heels for him. Thank you so much for your review!

[Words of Wisdumb]

Good job. Commonality is always a good theme and overthinking is definitely common.

[Helen]

I love the line "I'll just sit here and overthink" because it perfectly captures something about those times when I almost choose to be miserable, choose to sit with my head in my hands and overthink - I know I am doing it and it is just perfectly miserable and yet I seem to be powerless to do anything else. It's very visual and visceral and an engaging read.

[spacelava]

Beautiful, as per usual. 🥺 The emotion, the stress - it's so apparent and you've captured it so nicely. As a fellow overthinker myself, I strongly relate. Our pesky thoughts and anxiety filled bodies always seem to find a way to make us find faults in everything. No matter how little or simple that may be.

[Kari Rakitan]

This seems like a very stressful relationship, or perhaps the narrator is the one who has a stressful relationship with herself.

[Nix is typing...]

Well... don't all relationships have at least some stress? I'm glad I made you think! :) Thanks for you review!

[Caleb is typing...]

As an overthinker, this relates to me so much. In a world of fake smiles and fake faces, it's hard to know someone's true heart until it's seemingly too late to stop the pain train from running you down. I felt this, so well written!

[Nix is typing...]

See, this is what I mean when I say I wish I had your mind... God, I wish I could leave reviews as good as this, as always, tysm, Bestie!!!

[T.S. Ulmus]

As a fellow overthinker, this reads very real. You have quite the talent for capturing the grit of emotion. Only 18 and the soul of a poet, I have to tell you it doesn't get easier, just wait until you have some real s*** to feel rotted about, when your soul is full of maggots and decay because of things you do or say. Unfortunately, I can promise that will happen. A talented write here though.

[Nix is typing...]

Actually, I won't be 18 until June, but six months isn't much of a difference, I suppose. I appreciate your advice on how much more the world will suck, lol I figured that out when I was twelve and got hit by a car :3 (I actually wrote about it, entitled "Therapy session" not a poem, but a story) I've been through more things than most seventeen-year-olds have, which kinda, totally sucks. But I like how you put the description of how my soul will be. Haha, I figured that out when I was almost put in jail last year. I've got a lot to write about, and even more to express, so just hang tight, and I'll have a new one out soon enough. Thanks so much for your review! ❤️

[T.S. Ulmus]

I'm glad you accepted my review with only the love with which it was intended. Wisdom has a smell which is picked up by the wit, the wise know it is not pleasant, but you stink of it.

[Nix is typing...]

Haha, I like that little rhyme! Thank you!

[Neville]

.......... Certainly made me think .. am gonna score you high because I'm a nice guy but maybe consider reviewing folk before you ask them to become friends ... just sayin :)
.......... Neville

[Nix is typing...]

*Smiles awkwardly* Sorry, I was like three percent awake last night at like 5 am friending everyone. I appreciate your review, though. :)

[Neville]

................. no need to apologise .. and you are most welcome :)

[Just Kim]

Some profanity may help, LOL
Nicely presented. Nicely written and well nicely expressed

[Nix is typing...]

Thank you so much!!