Zugzwang

I fell for a girl,
Who loved someone else,
While I channelized my feelings,
Someone else already expressed

Feeling resentful,
I saw her bloom,
She smiled sunshine,
As I searched for moon

What could I possibly do?
Should I take my chances now?
Contemplating situations,
I thought when and how

Staring at the roof,
Staying awake in bed,
Love left behind,
Apathy waits ahead.