Discovering You And Me

A Story by Nisha Ahmed

It’s so hard to keep yourself distant from people and society, they always reel you back in. I still haven't figured out if it’s a good thing or not, till now I've only experienced bad. I guess, I'm obviously exaggerating. But my point is I know that this life is a software, and that it’s only for me to work on myself and build myself... But whenever something bad happens (or at least I think it’s bad) I get so tensed and agitated, that I forget my purpose of existence.

All the sudden that "problem" is everything, my whole life revolves around it, trying to fix it or deal with it somehow. I get so involved in it, that when I step ‘aside’, I realize how silly it all really is, and that I should actually be laughing about all this.

So if, for a person like me, who is so detached (most of the times) and who knows her purpose very clearly and who (I’d like to think) is stable and settled mentally, can get so bogged down by these trifle issues, how will a lost earthling react to theirs???

It really upsets me sometimes when I think about death. I believe in afterlife and in God’s existence, so it doesn’t scare me to leave this universe and enter the next… But what upsets me is that the people who have no faith and no hope in anything other than themselves, how would they take death? Are they scared? Do they think it’s the end of their existence? Or do they just choose not to think about it?

The whole aim of this article was for us to realize. Not any specific thing, just everything. What might seem to us so bad and horrible, might not actually be all that. And maybe others see the same thing in another perspective. And maybe, your happiest thoughts are someone’s worst.

Back to the topic, why do I get the ‘my-life-couldn’t-get-any-worse’ feelings whenever I have some issue, may it be a fight, a friend, a thought, a love, an idea, anything. Why do I get so emotional?

I’m obviously a sensitive person, and things might affect me more than they do to some. But I guess it’s a good thing, that I feel so much. It’ll probably come in handy, maybe in my writing or decision making in life!

And for those of you out there in the world, who feel too much (more than needed) I hope you also realize that this is a gift that we share, and we should use it, not block it.

Peace.