Conflicting State Of Mind

It showcases an ambivalent mind of an individual who's oppressed due to his level of aggression has peaked.

I'm not at all strong to give an opinion

My mind's in a state of constant oblivion

The darkness in me is in rapid proliferation

And the floodgates don't open for my rejuvenation

Two states of mind, two stages of tide

First one's oppression, next one's aggression.

There's a moment so dark which ceases to no end

Emotions c**k back and rock which you can't pretend

The mind's on regression, a corroding question

Is this the power of oppression?

With all that pain which goes on and on

And swallows up the courage until it's gone

The recovery, which is harder than being anxious

Is a long way to be anti-noxious

You and your actions which were diabolic

Degraded my internal actions which were metabolic

Karma's that B-word, in many bad ways

Which faded my soon to be Halcyon Days

Tendencies of giving up are unrest

And maybe my life's gonna fail that litmus test.

But, you all know,

There's a line which you don't cross BUT I CROSSED IT!

I don't care what the critics say

I don't care what my haters say

I just don't give them s**t for whatever they spit

Their sputum's filled with worms

They don't speak words that are firm

And I don't dissatisfy ditching these dumbs in a pit

I'm in rage, rage in a new level

You're gonna be caged, caged with a new shovel

Which would hit your head hard to make you maybe fit

I'm gonna tear that noxious mindset of these bloodsuckers

Who had spat me away, as if I was a kid from a gutter

Cause my mind's exploded like an ambivalent F-Bomb

That I hate my Karma, but everyone else's more

I'm not under pressure or oppression anymore

All my replies and paybacks gonna cause furore

Among those blabbers, which made me a scapegoat

Now I fear no one, I'm back on my ways,

Who the hell's gonna disrupt my Halcyon Days?

Author's Note

please tell the intensity of oppression and aggression in this.

Reviews

[Glen Yumang Manese]

The first part like you wanted is passive...and the second --- hits the switch and goes all chaotic --- from the transition in the first to the second...a Sunday driver and hit the pedal to the medal --- and gone in 60 seconds would some this up...I would go back in areas --- touch this up --- so your lines are clear and focus...to the reader...as for the intent of this write -- it has the feel I believe you're looking for...again --- I would personally go through and make this more concrete in the make-up...

[мalғy]

I will have to say I got a bit confused but after re-reading it made more sense to me. You have talent, but there were some things in that read that had no idea what they meant but then again I did enjoy this reading :)