The Numbed Lover

I loved someone

For quite a long time

I met her when I was just ten

we were kids and raw back then

I fell for her the moment I saw her

I wonder how a kid could be such a lover

I told her about my love or crush, whatever

She said she loved me back, I believed her

Then she left the city and my heart was broken

I felt as if my soul had been taken

Our paths were driften apart,

For me as a boy, such thing was hard

Then she found me ten years later

Life to me couldn't be better

We started to chat again

I felt as I was born again

The old sweet taste of love

Was flying on my sky like a dove

Suddenly, she disappeared from my life

No messages, no answers ,no phone calls

I felt like I was surrounded by prison walls

A hundred days passed since our last chat

I called her and finally she answered back:

" We can't be in love,

I want you as my friend, not a lover"

And that was it,

I texted her again,

But she didn't reply me back.

Now I'm a moaning man

A man who once had a plan

I feel as my heart has become numb

I want to explode to tears like a water bomb,

My poems are no longer impressive my friend,

Because the pain I've been through

Was so extreme that made me to bend.

Author's Note

I dedicate this poem to all the people who put all those efforts for their loved ones but never received the love they deserved.

Reviews

[jacob erin-cilberto]

Reminds me of a special girl from my youth...I spent a year trying to get back with her....thought we were together again, and then got the bad news...I was competing with several lovers.
I had the chance to get back to the lead, and circumstances beyond my control put the kabosh on that.
So yes, this poem hits a nerve.

[Nima.Hope]

And it's a putty to remember such a bad memory in your 70's man, I think I'll never forget this bitter memory ever.
I was betrayed. I was a backup choice for her just to have fun and a someday option.

[John the Baptist]

Release her and wish her well. You won't be happy until you do.

[Nima.Hope]

It's hard man