Solitary ThoughtsA Poem by Nikoleanthe thoughts that come with lonely nightsPerhaps it’s the cold wash of the moon or the silent call of the night that lulls me- numbs my pain and banishes my sleep. Awake, I am and pondering wildly.
Alone in the night I tremble. the quiet breaths from the room beside are wasted on newly deaf ears. Alone, I am, my thoughts and I.
My blank eyes gaze at the sickening sight of nothingness, fully weighing on my mind The fragility of sanity shatters by muting thoughts Hark! I find there’s nothing to life, Nothing to time-
Sanity bleeds into insanity, lines begin to blur as the brain can no longer bear the deafening silence that which seeps into my lonely weeping soul until Everything matters. Nothing remains. Just a distorted reality bending on my now blind eyes and rage flowing through emotionless lights-
The heart is tired. My muddle of thoughts cause me to swim in the calamity of my youth- wasted on the Love of the undeserving. of the obscene thoughts of those Guilty as charged.
Until all that’s left is me and my incomplete thoughts In a tainted room alone in the world. Devoid of emotion yet a craving for more- and to heal the empty to become empty myself.
There is no meaning to anything. There is no self worth- just empty desire and failures unaccomplished. There is no stability- the failings of oneself weighing on the soul my mind is lost to the instability of “what ifs?”
Silently, somewhere a calla lily* burns Silently, somewhere a life is corrupted Silently, alone, on tear stained cheeks that occur, as if I scream in a whisper.
I am Alone.
* calla lilies symbolize rebirth and life. Historically it has also meant purity. Torn, broken and burned calla lilies symbolize someone who has died before their time and fallen purity © 2017 NikoleanAuthor's Note
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