Who actually cares?

So now that you got what you wanted you could truly careless about me. 

You lead me on.

I ditched my friends numerous times for you. 

To spend time with you.

An just when I think I'm getting my s**t on track, I continue to sneak out of my house an go out of my way to see you.

It's silly I guess. Since you're quite a few years older than me.

An that night, the one night you said. "Nikki, F**k you an your family"

That's when I should have drawn the line.

But what did I do?

The very next night, I snuck out to see you.

you apologized repeatedly, an I forgave you.

But why?

You treated me with soooo much disrespect.

you said "Nikki, I care about you"..

If you truly cared, I wouldn't be sitting here writing this note that nobody will read.

Here's to you d********g,

that ugly average b***h your age, she uses you.

that's it.

So next time.

read this before you think to call me.

You'll think twice.

I swear<3

Reviews

[Patrick Henry]

You make me want to punch my desk, 'cause HE made you this pissed off!! This sounds like an argument that HAS to happen, one way or another!! I wish you had more than one poem. Your "About Me" is a perfect set-up to how this poem reads. Maybe the dude will get Herpes from a public toilet and infect that chick he's with!! ...just in time for Christmas, too!! xoxo -Mark

[kdpgrahi]

It is quite raw, a true pouring from the heart. I think it requires a softening and cutting the sharp edges.

[ivizarx]

lol, idk bout nobody reading... I definitely just did.
and yeah, relationships are hard mate, it's a good thing to write about and writing helps dis n***a vent too. built up frustration is a head-aching complication.
you can give all you can in a relationship, and yet you have to remember it's all a gamble. Remember that what you put it isn't necessarily what you're coming out with, and most of the time, the game is rigged.
and no worries, users, abusers, and a**holes of the world, they'll find their repercussions one day. though not soon maybe, but possibly later on in life, and in possibly a big way.
you can go from hell and back with a past lover, but it's the learning experience that should fuel your mind, not the anger. just a thought.
as for the poem itself, it's more prose than poetry. the elongation kinda really threw off the rhythm and structure. gotta remember even free-verse still has some flow yo. good note to your ex-lover though, if this doesn't get across the message, don't think nothing will lol...
as for your problems, i hoped they are remedied. hope everything gets better for ya, and keep up with the poetry. it'd be cool to hear more from ya. someone with so much emotion has sh**load of potential to be great. ;)