knowing when to stop

This poem is abot how drugs had taken over my life, and to be honest kinda still are, and how i know now i have to take control of my demons

I find love in drugs.

Everytime I stop I get broken hearted because I feel like the person I am on drugs is a way better person then the one not on them.

But yet daily I try to be the person on the drugs without the drug in me.

And daily I fail, daily I get down on myself because the person on the drugs is that demon that wants to come out because that demon use to be able to take over, and cover up all the emotions like I didn't even have any emotions, now everytime I try to get off the drug that rules my life, I feel like I can't even smile I cant be nice I cant be the person i want to be with out the drug, because when people like the person u are on drugs better then you when your not then you know their is a problem 

You know now that you can't let this demon take over anymore.

You can't focus on others.

You can't let your gaurd down anymore.

You have to build higher and stronger walls to block out all the hurt and pain.

That u thought you could get over or thought u had gotten over is still their 

And the only way to make it go away or feel an escape

Is to fall straight on your a*s 

And know that the needle in your arm feeding u lies isnt the way anymore