Forever and Always

This is a personal short story.

Have you ever felt love? It's scary, wonderful, amazing, daring, and risky. It makes you so vulnerable. It eventually opens your heart up. Which means that someone can immerse their selves into you and mess you up, so you build all these defenses. You build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you... Eventually you take that suit of armor off for that one person. Scared as you are... you want to trust them. So you do. Then they take the trust and toy with it. They mess with you, your emotions, your feelings, and your life. They may try to manipulate you or torture you. No matter what they do. You know they are hurting you... but they have love on their side. They use that supposed "love" to blind you and trap you. It sucks all the life out of you until you are left hallow and motionless... broken and desolate. You want to leave and get away from the pain, but your heart says "No". Your heart can be weak... too trustful... and most importantly, too blind. It searches constantly and drives off of any glimpse of hope it can find. It never accounts for the pain it may endure on the way. As long as it has hope... even just a sliver of it... it will always keep going. Until it is broken and the blindness turns to sadness. After your heart takes a few hits it begin to toughen and get cold and dark. It learns what the world is made up of. It raises it's defenses to the maximum, because it is afraid. Afraid of feeling the same pain over and over again. Just when you think you and your heart have lost all hope completely... someone comes around, but this time it is different. The way your heart reacts when you see them. The way you think about them. They way they fulfill your life and complete you. They way they show you they care. They way they love you. Your heart knows they are true. Your heart has enough experience to know. From the moment we kissed my heart immediately attached to his and swore never too let go unless he cut the strings that forever bound us. I made that promise to forever love him. No matter what. He is my everything and without him I am nothing. Forever and Always.