Fallen

The feeling after a horrible heart break

I was always that girl who didn't care,

I was the one who never cared what anyone else thought.

I figured when the time was right, I'd find someone,

But I never thought that I'd be you.

In my mind, I thought I was strong,

That I could go through life alone,

That I didn't need anyone,

That I could hold myself up on my own.

You showed me otherwise.

You showed me how I could open myself up,

That it's ok to lean on others,

To ask for help.

I let you in, despite everything,

I shattered the ice that covered my soul,

Broke down the walls around my heart,

And rebuilt them around us.

I let myself fall into you,

I let my love for you consume me.

I finally had an anchor,

Someone who I could reach for in the darkness.

But now everything's different,

Everything's changed.

You don't want me anymore,

I can only be your friend.

I put my mask back on,

Only show you the smile,

Only let you see what I want,

I can't show you the tears.

I am my anchor again,

I put those walls back up,

I have to live without you.

But I know I can't.

They say you know you've found the one,

The one who means the most in life,

The one who will always be there,

When you can't see a life without them.

You are it for me,

I know it in my heart.

You say that there'll be others,

But I know it's not true.

I've seen a life with you,

And that's all I want.

You were my first love,

And you'll be my only one.

Why can't you see that?

How much I need you.

You mean everything to me,

Don't I mean anything to you?

You made me feel loved,

You made me feel complete,

I felt safe in your arms,

And my heart you keep.

I'm falling through the darkness,

I'm reaching for your hand,

But all I find it black,

You aren't there to catch me.

No one is.