Dreadful Thought

Poem written in a time of dismay (1/25/2015).

I smoke to escape the pain,

Although it draws me more to think.

I fall into dreadful thought,

Which rushes me off the brink.

I stumble and fall into a state of sorrow.

Pieces of me crash and crumble.

Accumulated thought swooshes and sways,

which towers around me causing me to tumble.

I cannot escape this unnerving feeling.

Pain accumulates, for my heart is stiff.

Too many let downs time after time.

I have had my share of what if's?

Nothing works out, at least it seems.

I always wonder, what is going for me?

No love, no money, I am a lost cause.

Maybe there is a future, I would have to just wait and see.

Author's Note

This is a past poem I had found and tweaked a little bit grammar wise. I was a teen.