I Want You

Don't hate me cause I want to be religious.

Darkness is coming at me in every direction. It wants my soul, and everything good I am inside. I don't know what to do, and I am afraid. You're reaching out to me, but my hand is half open, and you can't hold on to me. No matter how much I try I can't figure out how to let you in. I want to. Believe me, I want to let you in, and feel your warmth fill me from my head to my little pinky toes. I'm trying to be better, I'm trying, but everything is so tempting, and I've always had trouble believing in things I can not see. I need you in my life. I need something soild because even the "solid" ground I'm standing on is shifting. Taking me places I don't want to go, showing me things I don't want to see, things I don't want to know. And out of all of it one thing I do know is that I want to believe. I want to believe in your light, I want you to shine down on me. And God i want you.. All of you, and I understand in order to have all of you in my life I have to give my life to you. And as you wait outside my walls, and at the other side of the bridge. I gather all I have left. Knowing it's not much to give, but it being all I have. I inch my way past the walls I've held up for so many years, and I'm making my way across the bridge to your open awaiting arms. And though it's the scariest journey I'll ever have to make I know it'll be worth it. Because I know when I get there, you'll hug me tighter than I've ever been hugged before. You'll make it all better for only you can give me everything I need. And knowing that I'm making my way to you, to your light, and your love.

Reviews

[Eagle Cruagh]

The perfect love, the love in which you
commit without reservation to another.
This is what every man seeks in a woman,
that perfect love in which she commits her
total being in to his care.
Beautiful, perfectly written.
Thank you

----- John