Gazing Upon Dead Stars

Random ramblings of my brain. I was too full of emotion not to write it down..

I want to capture your love like a token and hide it deep in my breast pocket

I’d hold you safe, close, and dear, but never touch you

You’re the prize I claimed long ago and now you sit on a shelf gathering dust

And even though those particles linger on your skin, you are still mine

But now there are others playing the same game to win your heart

And I don’t tell you that it burns my eyes because it is not my place

I’ll never say anything because I’ll always have that trophy

Even if I don’t show it to everyone that walks in the door

I still gaze upon it and remember all our good times

Crossing out the bad like days in a week on a calendar

When some part of you feels the same we never speak of it

There is only pain to gain there and it is not our time

We never gave up on that part of ourselves and it’s far from over

Granted what could there ever really be for us?

How many times do we have to rationalize this maze of feelings

Before it is beaten to death and left cold on the ground?

I know you’re not good enough for me and I don’t suit all your needs

Still the pull between us is greater than gravity and

The pain to be away from you can be too much to bear

So we are stuck in our purgatory residing as friends

Thinking in hushed tones around one another

Watching each other’s conquests come in and out of our lives

You will always be a part of me like the stars we keep too close

And maybe one day like those stars this will all be a faded memory

Dead in the past, written in books, and never looked at again