Every Time...

He can never be mine? I can never ask... (That could have something to do with the fact I am not his type!!!)

I do this every time. 

I seemingly cannot help myself. 

I do it all the time. 

It’s not something I mean to do, I don’t go out of my way to plan this. 

Yet, it happens all the time. 

Every time I find a friend, compassion turns to affection. 

Every time affection turns to infatuation, it eventually turns to love. 

And yet, it is never returned, always one way traffic where I am concerned. 

I don’t even need to say it, I like you makes them run!

Perhaps I should not be nice, maybe I should do the running; never let anyone close. 

Yet this was not how I was brought up, this is not how I want to be.

You show me kindness, respect and friendship.

‘Tis true I could not have got through this fight without your friendship.

So why does that make me want to fall? 

Why does it always equate to love? 

I read things that are not there, I see warmth when there is just none. 

I long to tell you, I think you are great.

Yet you will run just like the rest, you will turn away as they all have before... 

Though this time is different, you are different... 

You can never be mine, I can never admit; I can’t even get this straight...

Reviews

[Lenny Banks]

You have poured your soul into this one. I think it's relevant for many people, and could be a relevant for one! Good Work

[Nicky Sarti]

Thanks Lenny x

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Woe Nicki you have been a busy bee. Lots of emotions pouring in gushes all over the page here. Really honest writing. Sad but full of feeling.

[Nicky Sarti]

Thanks hunny, needed to get some writing sorted.
(shall write more as and when I can)

[Brianaswriting]

When I saw the FB I was like omg Facebook I love Facebook...but Good Writing! So cute, and honest again.

[Nicky Sarti]

Aww thanks hunny x

[KarinaT]

This is very sad but a universal problem. Everyone struggles with mismatch of affection sometimes. We have all experienced unrequieted love and tenderness. well described and honest.

[Nicky Sarti]

Thanks hunny... there is a tiny secret/background to this ~ but then, when isn't there where I am concerned?

[KarinaT]

Everyone has a background and confidences to share and keep. That's just life

[Nicky Sarti]

Tis true!