Deadly Sins of the Mother

Happiness is my motto,

Letting it be my only motto

And not anybody else's,
Not caring about you, you, or YOU. 

I'm proud of what I do,

And I'm better than anybody else, 
Watching with my eyes as though I'm the queen. 

So back off, I'm taking a stand to this;

I will crush anybody in my way. 

What can I say?

 I thrive in this,in money, in this game! 

I only married you because of what I could gain! 

It's like being on a buzz when you're drunk, 

Except with me, I get the buzz from

The dollar bills and fat cats with paychecks,

You being the biggest cat I know

With all the cash and all the wine. 

I know you'll do anything to pleasure me, 
And all you have to do, my dear husband, is just 

Give me money, money, money! 

I would swim in this if I could. 

I taste and dine, 
I eat and I'm fine. 

This food is too delicious 
To even pass up! 

I'm so full, yet I'm not 

Even to the main course,
Only having something quick

To eat while carefully eating

As thought I'm sitting 

At a fancy dinner party. 

It's strange to think that 
I have expense tastes at times,
Yet will eat anything if it's 

Right in front of my face,

Craving for practically anything 

That I can smell or of think of. 

If I could have two stomachs,

Then I probably would do it, 

Loving food as much as  I love myself. 

This room is a mess, 

Pop cans toppled everywhere

While the clothes have been

On the floor for god knows how long, 

My ambitions going out 

The window for quite some time. 

I never have the energy to do 

Much with myself or with anything else, 

My laziness and procrastination 

Always singing to my ears each
Time I even think about how

My room would look a little clean. 

And the light always dawns on me 

To have a maid in the house, 
Yet with not a care in world

For getting a job or how I look,

I just sit back and kick

The stuff that's around the house, 

Stepping on every single thing

That I've left on the ground. 
Yet again, I don't give a care. 

It's how I like it, and nothing can change that! 

I wish I had that tv, 

I wish I had those blue high heels

That cost about $100 dollars. 

I hate how I have nothing 
And the world has everything. 

It pains me to even stare 

At something so expensive,
Walking around everyday  

To see something so worth while,

So beautiful at the hand, 
And turn green because of it. 

So I wonder if I should just cry 
For the money I don't have

Or for the love of stuff that 
I wish I had, my heart slowly
Dropping from my chest to the ground. 

My heart is pounding, and 

My skin is aching with anticipation! 

Every time he comes by me, I daydream

About how I could tear his shirt off

And expose his six packed abs to my lips, 

Wanting his hands upon me  as 

I willingly let him take over. 

And it never fails for his smile

To make me melt into a big, huge puddle,
His sexy grey eyes begging me

 To take a dive into them and 

To experience what my world 
With him would do to me. 

Shaking my head out of the clouds

And looking around, I watch him

Go by me once again and my heart

Is taking over as I wrap my arms 
Around him and whisper sweet nothings

About what I'd do to him in his ears, 
Feeling his lips press longingly against mine. 

I melt into his arms and let him carry me to his car, 

Hoping that he'll be in my life more than just this once. 

Snatching the gun from the dresser 

In the bedroom, I'm going to pop some lead

Into your a*s, teaching you a lesson on the laws of the mind. 

You abused me once, and you've abused me again, 

Over and over like a record player stuck on one song. 

I'm not going to take it anymore from 
The fist of your hand or the strike of a word! 

I'm sick of all your stupid little mind games,

Wanting to see you whipped by my own hand instead. 

So if you want to apologize, you certainly can. 
But it's not going to make feel any better 
Or wipe out all the memories over the last two

Bitter years being stuck with you at my side. 

One, two, three. What's it going to be? 

Oh, not answering to me, thinking you're so tough? 

Bang, bang, bang! Call yourself to that hospital bed. 

Waking up to the smell of perfume, gun powder, and dirt, 

I feel so lost in my own life, dizzy from what I don't know. 

Where have I been? Where have I gone? What's going on?!

I'm too scared to even think about all the trouble I've really caused.
Standing up from my apartment bed, my legs turn to rubber

And strike me with weakness, tumbling over a blue shoe

That I don't even remember owning. 

There's also a very slimming black dress over 

The frame of my computer chair, looking at myself

Before I realize that there's bruises and hickeys  

That are covering me all over the place. 

Rolling back and forth on the ground 

To stand up and get a hold of myself, 

I see something scribbled in the mirror

In the bathroom, my feet carrying me 

Away as though they were the only thing supporting me. 

When I let myself crash into the door frame, 
I see a gun and something written in lipstick, 
My jaw hanging on the very bone that I have left

While I realize slowly what's been going on. 
They all call me this,to make sure I know for sure

That I'm under their influence and stayed under their control. 

I am the "Mother" of the Deadly Sins, and I can

Hear their laughter, not being able to do a thing about it. 

I have given "birth" to these monsters within me. 

Author's Note

This is basically a woman with seven split personalities,and she's the "mother" of them all, and after a while, she just let her personalties win over her own mind since she lost control of her own mind.

But this is the order I went in:
-Pride
-Greed
-Gluttony
There's six kinds of Gluttony:
Praepropere - eating too soon.
Laute - eating too expensively
Nimis - eating too much.
Ardenter - eating too eagerly
Studiose - eating too daintily
Forente - eating wildly
I'm not sure if I got them all, but I got some of them.
-Sloth
-Envy
-Lust
-Wrath

This is in the One Letter Poems contest.

Reviews

[Lorraine]

I didn't quite understand its flow until you kindly explained it in your note. I think the concept is good, except the personalities you've said were so randomly placed, it was quite disorienting to not have some kind of transition. Even so, the general feel of it, was good enough for a read.

Keep Writing. ^___^

[deeps]

This is a intense read here.
Quite the powerful one as well

[Star Wolf]

Wow! Impressive!

[Jen]

What an intense read. Though I felt like it read more like a story than a poem. I know there are narrative poems, and maybe this is one. There were also a few missing words that you would catch on a read through.

This is quite an idea you've had and one definitely worth looking at in more depth. Thank you for sharing.

[Sean M. Addams]

i liked this alot a very unique and clever piece ..i liked the whole concept of this write..overall a very brillant write..very nice job on this ms.Nicole Renee i'm deeply impressed!!!