Scattered, Yet Together

This is what's on my mind...perhaps advice?

 

I feel like I have some type of writer’s block. It’s not exactly like writer’s block, yet it is anyways. I have the ideas and want to write them done, yet feel like a huge procrastinator when it really comes to what I want to do (I also feel like ‘I’m losing my touch’ or something like that…I don’t know anymore). For example, my novel that I’ve thought about for a long time (The Silverlight Chronicles: Eye of a Faerie Tale). I have THREE chapters down so far, and I’m on my fourth…yet I haven’t totally written it up (I have ideas for what I want to do too). I know this sounds weird (you could say),  but I know what might be the problem…which is life. Life is just getting in my way of one of my passions and it sucks. Plus, I’ve been thinking about a few things; like my grandparents putting their dog Chen down tomorrow.

                 He has cancer and he’s not eating at all, not moving when the other two dogs are moving. Even Bow (I’m not sure how my grandparents would spell his name) is confused about why Chen’s not moving (I think my mom said his stomach was bloated up with stuff or something like that…..it’s something to do with his stomach, I know that). I learned this today right after I got home from being at my friend’s grandparents’ cabin home (it was a great time!). So I’m really bummed about that since he’s been there since I’ve been a baby (and since my uncles and dad have grown up).

 

Another thing that may be bothering me is about the topic of guys. They’re confusing human beings…sometimes. They can also be a tad annoying when one of your best friends TALKS ABOUT HIM ALL THE TIME (and you don’t even know him, yet you know him because of how much your friend talks about him). This particular guy that my friend likes (now) hasn’t been getting on my nerves until recently. I’m not totally annoyed, yet annoyed enough where I know that every time that I talk to my friend, I know the topic of the day is going to be about him. They’re friends, so it’s ok.  But I just wish that my friend would take a break from the phone….it might melt into her hands someday.

 

Also, I kind of like this guy that graduated this year. I added him on Facebook (please don’t stalk me now. Lol), and we’ve talked a few times (not enough, though….I had to make the ‘first move’ by saying hi first).  All I want is for him to say, ”Hey, what’s up?” and for us to maybe have a long conversation. I wanted to go to his graduation party (it was an open graduation so everybody could come), but I didn’t since I was hanging out with a friend and I didn’t realize this until about a few hours AFTER his grad. party was over (I gave him a grad. card, so it makes it up….kind of…I asked him if I could give it to him in person, but then deleted my comment and said I’d mail the card to him….he had his address up since it was an open party….okay, I’m getting off topic….*sighs*). But the thing is that I’m too afraid that I’m going to annoy him by saying hi all the time and asking him if we could talk. He's has a really awesome personality; he's funny; cute, and this guy is really nice (what I want in a guy). ......Anyways, I don’t know about that part of my life just quite yet….I'm still figuring that out myself...

 

And that’s what I feel like that’s what’s holding my writing back……what do you think? Am I right or am I just another girl rambling on and on about all random s**t going on in her life?

 

I always hope that you will see me……
Wish I could let you know
How I feel before you have to go

-A-Teens (I Don’t Even Know Your Name )

Author's Note

So yeah...woopdee do (no,I'm not trying to be in the 'center of the world')?

Reviews

[Larissa G.]

Truthfully I feel your pain on most of those subjects - the writer's block, the friends, the pet, the emotion, it's all unfortunately something we all deal with at, though not usually all at once. If it were me, I would simply try to relax a few days. Meditate, think, figure out your stresses and which ones you can eliminate. Try writing a set amount of time every day, even if only fifteen or thirty minutes. It'll come back.
Good luck. :)

[L.G. Knight]

You know i went thruogh a time when i didn't write anything because i had no ideas.... i mean i had them but when i picked up a pen to write them down or sat down to my computer to type them they came out crap... I couldn't figure out what was wrong... why i couldn't write what was in my head...so I kept trying and the harder i tried the worse the writing was... then i discovered something... I couldn't write because I was TRYING to write.... writing to me is not a chore and although i make an attempt to write every day no matter what it does not always work outt hat way.... when I have writers block I find what help me most is NOT to write.... I know that sounds insane but its true. My writing has never been just a fun pass time or even merely a loved hobby... to me writing has always been and will always be a NEED, something I HAVE to do or I will burst and when i have writers block I don't write for a few days. What usually ends up happening is that I will get so overcome with the need to put something on paper that I will write something AMAZING. Fill it with emotion and frustration and a love joy sadness heartbreak every feeling that has entered my system in my days of no writing would go into what I wrote and the reslut was something well worth the wait. I don't know that this wouldn be your solution but I know it worked for me... In the mean time try using your writing as an escape... something to take your mind off of all these things or use it as a realease and write ABOUT all these things pour every feeling about everything going on into a poem or short story or whatever and see if that dosen't help.... if not try not writing for a few days... don't let it go longer than three though that could be detramental.... hope it helps.

Best of luck!
~Frances~