Bad Man

Looking at the view, trying to understand,
"Am I a bad man? Or just mean well?",
every thing I do turns into ashes,

I've played with her feelings like I didn't care,
so today I'm trying to understand,
"Am I a bad man? Or just mean well?"

Whatever I do I should not give up the hope,
she still loves me but she wants to grow up

No one ever felt my pain,
They only saw me behind this clown mask laughing in the rain.
Partying wasn't the answer,

I need to get her back in my life,
so I can't feel the wound of that knife...
I guess I paid the price

"Am I a bad man? Or just mean well?"

Author's Note

Reviews

[Rick Puetter]

Dear Nick,

Very interesting ponderings. One is always uncertain of oneself. How can we know how we're perceived? And yes, we've all made bad mistakes in life that we wonder about.

Greatly enjoyed!

Best regards,

Rick

[M.E.Lyle]

You ask a tough question. I think, and this is just my opinion, I think if you repeat treating her bad, or anyone else for that matter...maybe you have a problem. But, if, like the reviewer before implies, you learn from your mistakes and don't repeat them well maybe you're an alright kinda guy. Whatever you do please don't use the excuse,"Well, that's just the way I am." because that doesn't really fly. You are who you make yourself to be. The fact you ask these question tells me you're probably a pretty good person, otherwise you wouldn't care enough to ask. This is a good write written from the heart. Good job.

[Nick.B]

Thank you for your review, kind of like it, rough, raw and straight to the heart (and I'm not being sarcastic about it)...thanks I appreciate it...like I said before, it was more of a miscommunication problem (but you don't need to hear my pitiful tale from the abyss) anyway thanks again for the review

[Relic]

In order to learn we sometimes have to endure the inner torment of our mistakes. This is not always easy and the war within takes a long time to end while the questions still linger. Good writing.

[Nick.B]

Your right, thanks for the review...I appreciate it

[Relic]

You're welcome.

[Circe]

an inner quest for answers.... quite a contemplative piece.. the sincerity is very clear.. it's like you are thinking it in the moment and are regretful of your actions.... i don't think it's too late to make right... well done on a solid piece.

[Nick.B]

Thank you, I appreciate it

[LA Lorena]

An honest question that I am sure most ask of themselves from time to time. To make a mistake is not a crime, nor does it make you a bad man. Sometimes good intentions just go horribly wrong. It's part of life. You're young, and will learn and grow from the experience.

[Nick.B]

Thank you

[kelvin]

trying to get one back can sometimes work out and then again not work out we can't make one no matter how hard we try come back to us but this can lead to a slue of different feelings and emotions as well not always a good thing to.This also has a person thinking have I done something or am I really this bad of a person. in the end all we can do is say we tried in the name of love this is a good read here as always keep writing fellow writer.

[Nick.B]

Thanks for the review, I appreciate it

[kelvin]

You're very welcome

[Writer *78*]

Impressive work, if you tried to get her back and didnt succeed then try again but if it comes down to her not coming into your life again then at least you can say that you tried your hardest to get the person back you truly cared about.

[Nick.B]

I may lost some fights, but i have never lost sight of the war...anyway thank you for your review

[Writer *78*]

Your welcome, never lose sight of the war just review your choices and if its really worth fighting for. If you choose to 'gp to war' as I say to my friends then go fight with your whole heart.

[Nick.B]

So I did and so I will

[SarahV]

I love this poem. Again as others have said the repetition is used really effectively! Also this stanza:
No one ever felt my pain,
They only saw me behind this clown mask laughing in the rain.
Partying wasn't the answer,
- I really like the emotion portrayed in it. This work is really quite beautiful! Keep up the good work!

[Nick.B]

Thank you, glad you like it

[AK]

Wow! Great poem :)
I really liked the repitition if "Am I a bad man? Or just mean well?" it portrays and livens your confusion and possible repent. These introspective thoughts give the reader a very good insight into your mind, and I must say you expressed yourself very well. Keep writing!

[Nick.B]

Thank you, glad you like it

[AK]

You're welcome :)

[Be myself!]

Another great poem my friend. :)

[Nick.B]

Thank you

[Be myself!]

Your welcome