Love, strength, courage & God.

My early teenage years to a grown mature adult. I've never thought to share this story but I feel like Its time for a release.

On the 20th of June 2011 at 2pm I went Crystal Palace Park. On this very day I met somebody who grew me into the women I am today! His name is Dontel Wallis. A proud magnificent graduate who's turning 22 very soon!

Being young as 15 back then, I can say I was rather vulnerable and un-educated in life's struggles and opportunities. I was a sensitive young tender individual who was in need of some affection from the opposite sex. I gave him my greatest and lusted. I thought I had falling in love within the early couple of weeks.

As months and years went past we grew something outstandingly far- reaching then just affection. We grew a plant of Trust with many petals of support, care, motivation, warmth, devotion and satisfaction. It grew day by day. If a petal shrivelled we would work on how we will build a stronger seed for a stable enlightened plant in life's journey. We held our hands out for support and motivation so we can overcome or at least prepare ourselves from the struggling hurdles in life's way. It was a challenging burdensome journey with many platform levels.

His birth mother sadly passed away in his early years of life. He's grown up to be an self-reliant wise cunning individual with the support from his loving step mum who took care of him like her own and his strong farther Michael who coped with all the pain and stuck through it all, becoming a stronger man day by day.

I've always felt like I needed to give him the care and support a mother would show him to a point where I'll put him before me rather then equally having the same affection. Seeing his true smile and honest eyes makes me wipe away my tears and focus on our happiness!


He was my model in my pathway!
He was my bean of light from my worries!
He was my key to my pathway in life’s doorway to success and realisation!
He was my boost in my educations motivation to keep achieving my goals!
He was a pin in the front of my neck prickling me to keep my head up high!

Now this is where it gets painful!

I grew up in a Strict Muslim religion! And he grew up with a Christian background. When we were both young vulnerable individuals we hadn’t put into mind the complications in two completely different religions bonding together.

Everyday I would ask myself these deep questions about life:

Why does religion have to sink holes between one another?
Why does race have to outline my title and not my inner soul?
Why is it that we get treated like being a different religion means that we are different humans to one another?

one of the most hardest challenging moments in life is when your on a stand still. Your on an edge of a cliff you can't fall off, you can't walk away. It's the feeling of two lovers tearing their heart outs leaving it on the ground and walking away from it! We had chosen to deal and cope with the pain and continue to support and motivate each other as best friends.

Life isn't always going to work out the way you dreamt of it too be. Nothing can ever stop you from adapting to it and positivity moving forward from what God has given you. You’ve got to change direction and re-draw your map to make it too where life's taking you. Taking one day at a time we acknowledged and coped with the fact that I had chosen god over him.

My parents wouldn't accept that I wanted to marry a Christian man, as it would be committing Adultery the biggest Sin in Islam. I was left at a stand still of picking one option! Causing a deep pain between my family and me by picking him! OR choosing my family and continue to support one another through our decisions of not being partners in marriage! It was the most painful decision I have ever made.

He's always told me he doesn't ever want to cause pain between my parents and me because it would cause pain between us all. so we came to the decision of changing directions. Up until this very day we are supporting and caring for one another in the thought that we may never be a married couple but a blossomed seed to grow another enlightened plant in the future. We grew up to understand and feel what love truly was deep down in our hearts!

Life isn't about living the dream but thankfully accepting what you've got and moving forward! All importantly focus on yourself and believe in God and the wonderful strength, courage and practice he gives us to make it through life's test.

GOD IS TRUE LOVE
So stop asking yourselves, why isn't my relationship working, why is my marriage not working?

You shouldn't be asking WHY!
You should be asking WHERE!

WHERE is God in it!?

Where is God at when I have problems and difficulties?

Allow God into your relationship! No matter how tough it gets and no matter how tough the difficulties get! Pray to God.

LOVE MAINTAINS AND THAT IS GODS LOVE TO US!

When ever your down pray to God! And he will direct you, the same way he's directed me into my future!

So remember let God in and find true love.

Author's Note

Please let me know what you think, any comments it could be positive or negative as everyone is entitiled to their own option. Feel free to review.

Reviews

[Antoñyo]

This hit home pretty hard (until the ending, I'm already Christian for life), and is instantly one of the best stories I've read here. However (I just have to say this, sorry), ANY religion ('True' Christianity is not a religion) that shuns pure love is not for my life. I would NEVER choose man's tradition and man-born beliefs over my happiness and ability to receive God's blessings. And yes, to find that perfect one is a blessing.
Great piece, Thanks for sharing.

[barleygirl]

Your story highlights a huge & important topic that's in the forefront of today . . . not just about marriage between those of differing faiths, but even innocuous friendships! On Facebook, if one of my Muslim friends posts something stating a loving or peaceful quote obviously from the Quran, none of my Christian friends will "like" it, even tho I typically get many "likes" on my own Christian quotes that say almost the same exact thing! Your story puts a detailed & compassionate face on this ridiculous chasm that's developed between Muslims and many other Christian-based religions. It makes me sick the way our prez candidate Trump feeds into this fear & paranoia, pumping it up to sky-high levels. Sorry for launching into a tirade. Your story tells it so gently & with such loving faith & understanding. I feel every loving story such as yours helps turn the tide of hatred that is coursing thru our current world. We need many more of these kinds of stories, so keep writing. I especially love the way you wrote this:
"If a petal shriveled we would work on how we will build a stronger seed for a stable enlightened plant in life's journey. We held our hands out for support and motivation so we can overcome or at least prepare ourselves from the struggling hurdles in life's way. It was a challenging burdensome journey with many platform levels."