A tale, not of love...

I leave it to you. You can describe it any way you want.

This is the story of Tania. Tania, a fifteen year old girl, who is in love with an eighteen year old guy, John. It seems to be a love story right? But it isn't. You know what, I hate love stories. So, if you really wanna find out what else then a love story it is, then read on....

Lets go back to Tania's childhood. As a child, Tania always used to wonder how nice life would be once she grows up. When she was in the 1st standard, she used to dream of getting into the 4th standard. When she was in the 4th, the 8th seemed to be rather interesting...Now, she's in the 10th standard. But now, growing up doesn't fantasize her any more. Reason?? Lets find out. For that we need to go back to 2013, when Tania was in class 8.
   " Enough is enough! I won't trust anyone anymore. This world is so selfish. No one in this world can love anyone else than oneself. I know, this is my fault. I trust people so easily, and by doing that, it is me, who gives a chance to them to break my heart. Neither I'll trust anyone, love anyone, nor they'll get a chance to betray my love."
   What you just read was a page from Tania's dairy. She decided not to trust anyone, not to love anyone. But that's not possible right? Who on this earth has control over one's heart? Now... lets see what has been waiting for Tania.
  "Hey Tania, someone from class 10 loves you", one of her classmate said.
   As I already mentioned, Tania was least bothered about these stuffs. She just chose to ignore. But it was her sixth sense, yelling out to her since the first moment that the guy, her classmate was talking about was none other than John. Well, her sixth was right.
  Speaking of John, a tall, handsome guy whom most of the girls of the school had a crush on. He was handsome indeed, trust me on that. But Tania was way different than those girls. Just being good looking was not at all a criteria for her to judge a person. Tania already faced many things in her life till then. All her past experiences made her very insensitive. And most importantly, she lost trust in love.....
   "What should I do? I don't understand, why at all am I in a confusion regarding this. I decided to stay away from these things, didn't I? May be I'm thinking too much. Let me talk to him, know him, if I like him, its well and good and if I don't, I'll always have a chance to walk out." - this was another short page from her diary.
  From next day on, they started talking to each other. Even John was not serious about this, even he just wanted a break from his past life. Both of them very well knew it. But gradually as they started knowing each other, they found out how similar they were. Their thinking, their experiences, their outlook.... were all so alike. They started to like each other, and when that 'like' helplessly turned into 'love', they couldn't even figure out. They thought that they were made for each other. Life seemed to be a fairy tale....
   But life isn't a fairy tale right? Today, after completing two years, one month, one day and twenty two hours together.... Tania is horrified thinking of the future. She is so much in love with him, she doesn't know what her life would be without John by her side.
  Oops! I forgot to tell you what made her think of all these. John is in 12th standard now. And most probably he'll have to walk out of the city they live in, to persue higher studies. Tania being quite a practical girl, knows that her life, or I must say 'their life', will be never be the same ever. She knows that the future years might not support them. She knows that her life would never be a fairy tale ever.She knows that John loves her, she trusts him... but....
   Sorry, I won't be able to describe that 'but...'    Maybe its the fear of the unknown.... may be its insecurity.... maybe its low self esteem.... or maybe its this cruel world... maybe its her weakness.... maybe this society....... maybe......

Author's Note

Your reviews would be helpful.

Reviews

[Anindita Janhabee]

First of all, this was very close to my heart. I am very much similar to the girl whom u described here. So seriously, I enjoyed reading much as if you had written about me. Not a single thing is changed. Everything is the same...as in me.... I am in class 10 now..
And I can only say that if something is yours, then it will definitely come back to you, if it doesn't come, then it was never yours....
Similarly, in today's world of internet, distance doesn't matter much. Still, it does bcz I have seen the same situation where we you are close yet distant.....
The story doesn't feel me like a story bcz for me it was about me. Starting from class, different from other girls, out of crush, being myself, senior friendship and all... everything is about me....
very nice to read...
Thanks for writing this....
I feel glad. ..
Anindita : )

[Neytri]

I'm glad that you could relate. Thank you :)

[Avinash]

This made me look into retrospect and think what really matters is this moment. If you feel loved at this moment there is nothing to worry, neither past. Love this moment..that is what I have learned from life.

[Neytri]

I consider you as a lucky person as you could actually follow what you learned, but that itself is the problem with Tania, its not that she doesn't know that there's no use thinking of the future. But its just that she's not being able to help herself. Well, thanks for reviewing :)

[Blackheart]

Teenage love. So colorful and melancholy. Well, after 12th one has to move out for future studies to different places. 90% of couples go through this phase. A few lucky ones maybe go to the same place to study together. So tell your friend that it will be alright. If their love is true and pure, distance is just a number. Long distance relationships do survive, if there is trust. So tell Tania to concentrate on her 10th results. Rest will be alright. Everyone faces this phase. You can't just deny it. :)
One typo is there too. 'pursue' instead of persue.

[Neytri]

Oh yeah, pursue... thanks... and I'll surely convey your message to Tania.

[Blackheart]

You're welcome.