How you killed me

First time you killed me, you smiled.

A lazy twist on the corners of your face

Slowly tingled my midsection.

Butterflies…

A slow gaze peered through my soul

Like a painless twitch;

Bittersweet numbness...

Left me motionless,

Breathless…

 

Second time you killed me, you smiled.

I felt your breath on my ear

As you whispered,

Letters coated with honey,

Sweet words…

You smiled,

As I drowned in your love,

Pledging my soul.

As I took my last gasps of air,

-I love you- I whispered.

 

Third time you killed me, I smiled.

I smiled when you showed me teeth,

When you looked at me and saw her.

I was your medium,

Sending messages from your dead past,

Satisfying your need of her, your lust.

I was your instrument,

Playing your melodies of love, for her.

I was your voodoo doll,

Shoving needles into my heart, to poke her.

 

Third time was just like the second time,

I smiled, you lied.

For me it still felt like the first time,

To you, I was just a pastime.

I smiled, as you walked on me

Your 500 pounds old-hurt

Stomping my heart,

Squishing till it dried out.

But you smiled,

Another woman on your arm. Ouch!

 

Fourth time you killed me, I did it for you.

CSI Miami called it crime of passion,

Cause of death: Blunt force trauma to the heart.

They said they saw some old wounds,

Covered up but never healed.

Criminal minds said it was a crime of stupid,

There was no forced entry, they said;

 “She let the perp in and gave him a weapon”, DUMB!

I let you stab me with my own knife,

When I ignored all the signs;

Like how you never once said, You Love Me.

 

But now I see your heart

And how painful a pretend smile is;

Where there is a hole

She left with her six inch heel.

Covered up, never healed.

There is a piece of glass,

From when you busted his windows to catch her.

And another hole, still bleeding

From when she played cupid

And shot you on another wound.

Stupid.

You are slowly dying…

Cause of death: Blunt force trauma to the heart.

Forgive before it kills you too.