Broken

Deep in the black. There is no happiness or gladness. There is no light. Learning to deal is the best thing I can do. Why me? I ask myself this everyday. Why am I like this? I don't even know who I am. How have I let this become me? I try to fight and fight. Nothing left to do. I have lost all energy and hope. Running is the best solution, dying is the last. But why me? Why now? I feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders. It keeps piling on. I'm scared that it will crush me. But I can't let go. I can't lose my identity. I'm the 'Good Guy", the "Perfect One." I don't see what other people see. I see a monster, a dark shadow. I see the devil himself. So what does everyone else see? A question I ask myself every time I look in the mirror. Has the darkness consumed me so much that I can't see the good anymore? The one thing I have truly good, I have ruined. I cast out my anger and pain against her. But she understood, even in my time of suffering.She is the one person I feel that I can tell anything to. The person I truly love. The one I can call and let go of my heavy burden.  If I lose her, what am I? a rock to break? A empty soul?  A dog without its owner? I become nothing. I am sorry for the way I have mistreated her. I have disrespected her time and time again. Without her I am gone. Why do I love her so much?

Reviews

[child of God]

Ok I can see that you are going through a lot of similar things that I'm going Through I understand what it's like another powerful. Writ keep your chin up
Broken girl

[Daniel Whitaker]

Thanks Broken Girl. This is the only way I can let out my feelings.

[Clayre]

This is a really emotional, deep piece. I thought it was amazing. Excellent job, and I can't wait to read more of your writing.