The Ghost of My Self That Was

A few reflections, having just sold my mountain home and bolt hole high in the Starra Planina Mountains of Bulgaria

The Ghost of My Self That Was

I did not want to fall

asleep

last night again

without you ..

And so, I sat alone

on the balconet

in the pouring rain

with a full jug

of wine, but minus

the usual cigarettes ..

It was there

where I felt,

for the first time lost ..

Not like a visitor

lost, or alone ..

But more like an

unwelcome guest,

or a ghost perhaps ..

In what was

once, my very own

perfect mountain home ..

 

Author's Note

the mention of cigarettes was a poetic prop .. I've not lit up for more years than I can now remember .. the wine was red .. the image is mine

Reviews

[Kelly Scheppers]

I always say goodbye to each and every room, before leaving. It's like letting go of a friend, as it leaves you in tears. Ok, maybe that's just me reflecting back on a memory, but I felt a lump in my throat as you sat alone on that balcony in the pouring rain. I applaud you for "breaking the habit". That in itself is quite an accomplishment. And I'll take a glass of that red wine, too...and toast to the ghosts of our past!

[Neville]

please accept my very sincere apologies for this uncharacteristic and otherwise imposed late acknowledgement of your kind and encouraging visit Kelly .. I assure you, I was otherwise engaged and if the offer remains open, I shall drink a very large red this evening as a mark of my genuine appreciation and to your health ... Neville

[Kelly Scheppers]

No apology needed my friend! The offer still stands!

[Neville]

.................... OK .. Cheers K .. N 🍷🍷

[willweb]

To leave something we have grown so fond of is a sad day indeed but, the memories created while there will stay with you for a long time and maybe you can return someday? Sounds like an enchanting retreat to me, sorry you had to say goodbye.

[Neville]

thanks for the vote of confidence Will, as always appreciated my friend .. After almost twenty years, it was the right time to sell and I know I can go back any time .. it just won't be mine, that's all .. Neville

[1809 Black Plague Decem..]

Hellos, Dear, Neville,
I rapture this poem,
It is whithstanding, lost, to find no love,
I love the whole, ciggis, the rain, the mountains, great write hon!
-----1809 Black Plage December

[Neville]

Hello my friend many thanks indeed for taking a few moments to consider the ingredients which made up my little scribble here .. Neville

[Chris Shaw]

I know how hard it must have been to say a final farewell to your mountain retreat. From your writing, I feel as though I have been there. You will have your wonderful memories, but more so, the spirit of you will linger in those walls as though you have never left. Sitting alone on the balconet, in the pouring rain with only your red wine for company added to the sadness I felt when reading this poem. On the bright side as one door closes another door opens Neville. A fine good morning to you from sunny Berkshire.

Chris

[Neville]

You are absolutely write Chris, about everything except the weather this end .. thank you kindly and then some .. Neville

[Archishman Rick]

I feel the somber mood presented, in the image of what once was. Spirit still lingers over there, with a sense of belonging that supersedes legal claim. Wonderfully atmospheric with the backdrop of this beautiful mountain range.

[Neville]

how extraordinarily delightful .. many thanks Archishman Rick .. Neville :)

[Light and ashes]

I've felt like this, in my own life. It is a strange feeling.

[Neville]

It is indeed my friend and may I just say, what an honour it is to have you appear on my page .. many thanks for dropping in .. Neville

[Light and ashes]

bless you, friend. It was my pleasure.

[Neville]

we call that a win win around these here parts :)

[Ken Simm.]

Can I say this is a dark hollywood scene from the thirties to me. And all the better for it. Wondefully atmospheric.

[Neville]

you can say absolutely anything you want Ken .. go on, let yourself go sir .. oh' so ya did, cheers, that'll do nicely say's Neville :)